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mental blk...
30.11.04 @ 13:35 haha...solve my prob le...feel so relieved...haha...duno y recently i lyk mental blk lyk tt...suddenly lyk canot tink of wat 2 sae de...haha...aniwae...later i goin back band...c wat e crap they doin...but e main reason im goin back is coz im reali reali v bored at hm...n i cant stand it animore...so...juz go out lar...haha...k lar...i reali mental blk til v serious...canot tink liao...haha... with love, xoxo shd i or shd i not...
28.11.04 @ 16:16 ...im reali lost now...my ex ask mi 2 patch...i duno if i shd or not...coz dere's another person in my heart...i reali duno wat 2 do...shd i give him a chance or shd i hurt him again once more...haiz...y muz i haf 2 make tis decision...zhen me ban!!!...i cant tink...not now...hai...how...dere's no1 hu can tel mi wat 2 do...haiz...reali need 2 do alot of tinkin liao...juz so i can make e rite decision...so tt e least amt of harm is done...haiz~... with love, xoxo abt last nite...
26.11.04 @ 16:25 wel...e nite tt ive been waitin 4 finaly came last nite...i tot tt my hairdo wil onli b les than an hour...but in e end...it was 1.5h...i was lyk so rushed 4 tym after my hairdo...i onli left les den an hour b4 i had 2 b in sch...so i rush everyting n i felt tt i look weird...but heck lar...juz rush 2 sch...wen i juz walk 2 e canteen tt tym...i cldnt recognise sum of mi frenz...they look al so different...haiz...after a v long tym den we finaly end up in e hal...most of e nite was fun...xcept 4 e speech by each clas...i reali felt lyk slpin at tt tym...finally...after 3h...we finaly got 2 e food...den after tt is al photo takin here n dere le...lastly wen they put e video abt e past 4 yrs...its stil quite alrite...but wen we had 2 sing e sch song 4 e last tym...wel...i cried...not coz we're singin it 4 e last tym or coz we're finaly getin outa e sch...but coz i tot of al e tymz in e past tt i used 2 critise e sch song bein sang wrongly n al e other occasions concernin e sch...e.g. official openin n stuf lyk tt...i juz felt sad tt i haf 2 leave moi frenz...but tts e way life is rite...learnin 2 cope wif e losses... ...alrite...enuf abt cryin...remember tt tym i wrote abt tis guy...tt i dun noe if i reali lyk him or not...wel...after last nite...i finally realise tt i reali do lyk him quite a lot...coz after he left...it felt so empty thou dere's stil so many ppl ard...but aniwae...tis guy wil nv noe how i feel abt him coz i'll nv tel him...haha...dere's sumting abt last nite tt i find surprisin...she(sum1 i used 2 hate) actualy ask mi 2 take a pic wif her...wel...i've long forgotten e hatred i haf 4 her...n im hapi 2 noe tt she can let go of e past n move on wif her life...wel..tts abt it 4 last nite... 2 al graduates of prcs 2004...e best of luck 4 ur future... n if u noe mi...dun eva eva 4get mi...ok... with love, xoxo b^orin~...
20.11.04 @ 20:58 i was bored todae n started tinkin abt sum stuf...suddenly i feel tt im no longer at e same frequency s sum ppl...feel tt their world is so much different fr mine...its lyk...their way of life has changed so much tt i no longer noe wat they're tinkin abt...oso...i regreted makin sum decisions tt i made in e yr... ...wen i finish my chem ytd...i lie down n tot abt my 4 yrs in sec sch...sec1...i made wrong frenz...got cheated...got hated by sum ppl...disaster...sec2...found out e truth abt tingz...steer clear of danger...made more frenz...climbin up e leadership ladder...sec3...more confident of myself...got cheated again...slack e whole yr...sec4...got cheated by sum ppl hu i tot wld nv cheat mi...let go of sumting i nv tot i cld...n everyting ard mi goes crashin down...nth seems 2 b rite...haiz...i juz duno y...it seems lyk every yr i get cheated by ppl...i dun understand...mayb its coz i trust ppl 2 ezily...i duno...wats wrose nw...i feel so alone in tis place...ya...its e holidaez n im suppose 2 go partyin wif my frenz...but...e person im alwayz wif is nw 2 bz 2 go out wif mi...e ppl i used 2 b wif juz dun remember i exist...e onli outin tt im hafin btw now n 25.11 is 2 e karaoke on e 24th...n im e 1 hu ask ppl 2 go...not ppl ask mi 2 go...m i reali tt pathetic or wat...i duno...im oso human...i need ppl ard mi 2...haiz~........ with love, xoxo tis few daez~...
18.11.04 @ 17:00 ...hai...these few daez al i do other den studyin is tv n more tv...den finaly todae manage 2 cum online...hai...but tt stupid msger stil cant sign in de...hai...few daez ago not feelin well...keep sneezin...majiam lyk gona b sick lyk tt...lucky i got drink more water...den now ok le...but todae suddenly sneeze n sneeze again...hai...duno how cum so lyk tt 1...n oso tis few daez e stupid moran mosquito keep comin 2 mi 2 suck my bld...itchy leh...haha...den todae wen go sch 4 paper...ask moi frenz if they wana go kbox go sing sing after xamz a not...den decided 2 go nxt wed lyk tt...hai...finaly can go kbox again...but...e atmosphere wil b diff le...but hack lar...at least i get 2 sing n sing n sing 4 al i wan on e dae...haha...juz now tt stupid amaths paper...so~...idiotic...i dun tink i can pas my paper 2...onli can pas paper 1 if i heng...aniwayz...now o lvl gona over le...onli left tml chem paper 1 n 2...i stil hafnt find work yet...duno where can work leh...haiz...i haf 2 work durin tis super long holidae de lar...if not i wil get bored 2 death de...hai...dun ask y i keep hai-ing todae...i oso duno y...mayb coz im duin sum serious tinkin ba...haha...ya...tinkin if i reali lyk tis particular guy a not...duno leh...lyk sumtym got feelin sumtym dun haf de...den sumtym feel lyk im brainwashed 2 tink tt i dun lyk him...hai...nvm le...most probably i'l 4get abt tis guy in a few mthz...or mayb i'l juz discover tt i actualy lyk tis guy alot...haha... with love, xoxo ||
14.11.04 @ 21:29 haha...finally found my prom dres le...oso found sum of my make up...i decide liao...i not goin makeover...do everyting myself...haha...hopefully by e end wun look lyk ghost...haha...aniwae...enuf of e hapi stuf...i haf tis story abt 2 couples tt i wana tel...coz i reali tink tis 2 guyz involved reali v poor ting... story 1 tis guy 1 n gal 1 were together a yr ago...sadly they split after a wk or so...after they go their seperate wayz, gal 1 found another gal n they were hapi...guy 1 oso found another gal...but they oso break up after a few daez...e story until here not much prob rite...but...sum tym ago...gal 1 broke up wif her bf...n sumhow e guy n gal meet each other more often...1 dae...i saw guy1...he told mi tt he's stil in luv wif gal1...n ask mi if he haf ani chance...i didnt noe...den...gal1 haf a few options...coz a few guyz wen 2 her...she ask mi hu 2 choose...i told her my opinion...in e end...she chose another guy...i ask her y she didnt choose guy1...she told mi tt she didnt lyk sum tings tt he do...n e prob is she didnt tel him abt it...meanin he didnt noe y she wil not lyk him again...i reali tink tt its v sad...coz...e guy stil luv her more than aniting...but e gal juz dun haf feelingz 4 him animore...or at least tts wat she sae...i raeli pity e guy...everytym she break wif 1 guy...it seems as if he stil got chance...but in e end...it turns out 2 b another wae...sad...n gues wat...on friendster there's tis bulletin abt wat u wan 4 christmas...n e 3wishes guy1 wan was 4 gal 1 2 go back 2 him...haiz....~... story 2 guy 2 n gal 2...they were together...e 1st tym i saw e gal...e onli ting tt i can sae or feel is tt...she has e words 'guai gia' written on her face...she's so guai gia til i wana slap her...but tts another ting...tis couple broke up not long after...howeva...guy2 stil luv gal 2...so...he ask her 2 patch...so...til now...fr wat i heard a few daez back...they break 6 tymz n patch 5 tymz oreadi...every1 can c tt gal 2 is cheatin guy 2 of his feelingz...i told guy 2 b4...he juz dun believe mi...n tts not e wrost...wen guy2 decide 2 sort tings out wif gal2...al she does is look every where else xcept at him...if i were a guy n she did tt 2 mi...i'll feel so damm insulted...she's such a b**** u noe...now cum 2 tink of it...im at wrong...coz juz sum tym ago...i broke off al ties wif tis guy coz of tings tt i heard fr my fren hu heard fr gal2...i'm startin 2 regret bein so bad at him...coz...i duno if wat i noe is true...n i didnt give him a chance 2 xplain tings...so...im sorry... ya...i noe...wats e pt of mi telin so many ppl their stories...i didnt even ask their permission...but...i juz feel sorry 4 them...coz...e 2 guyz r my frenz...n so is gal 1...i reali hate 2 c e guys e way they are...haiz...~... with love, xoxo ...
11.11.04 @ 15:02 ytd do e bio paper...i tink i sumting wrong ytd...du paper2 finsih section a den wana slp...5min later den start doin section b...den i heng ar...q8 either is my best chapter...den i go on n on n on n on 4 e question...8 mark i go write 1 whole page...2 marks i go write half a page...i tink e marker oso wil mark til siao ar...c i write so much...haha...other den tt i tink my section a might haf sum probs ar...al e question lyk tink here tink dere...abit funi funi de...haha...duno lar...hopefully i can manage an a 4 my bio lor...coz i reali wana go 4 medical tech in poly...tt's lyk my 1st choice...den after tt got al e other media courses...aniway...enuf said abt e xamz... 4 prom nite...most ppl oreadi prepare finish liao...but mi ar...hai...duno eh...hafnt even find e dres...duno where 2 go 4 make over...hai...duno everyting sia...haha...aniwae...i haf 1wk break b4 my nxt paper on e 17th...so can go c c look look...hopefully can find sumting tts nice n i look gd in...hehe... 2 steph...thkz 4 ur advice... with love, xoxo ~
8.11.04 @ 18:29 if u haf read my previous entries...u're tinkin im gona write abt my xams again rite...haha...no...i read a mag e other dae n they sae tt we shd write abt sumtings tt we lyk in our blog...but...i cant seem 2 find sumting i lyk 2 tok abt leh...but deres sumting tt i reali ponder abt tis few daez...wats life...is it...[l]earnin 2 cope wif e dif tings tt happen [i]dolin ard wen one is bored [f]indin e rite ppl 2 befren n luv [e]scapin fr reality...is it wat life reali means a not...i noe lar...its sound so unlyk mi 2 b tokin abt such serious stuf...but i reali wana noe lor...coz i reali dun understand...sum ppl sae tt life is ful of surprises but 99.9% of e tings tt hapen is wat u xpected...so...wats e big surprise...if life is reali so precious lyk al of us sae it is rite...y sum ppl wana go destroy their life by doin sum tings tt has been said 2 hurt...ya i noe tt sumtymz e onli way outa sum probs 4 sum ppl is by hurtin urself...but haf they tot abt how their frenz wil feel...sumtymz i dun understand y they do al tis stuf lor... dere's tis guy i was close 2 n cared 4 alot...but he juz dun listen 2 wat im tryin 2 tel him...(hes not my bf btw)...but tts not e worst u noe...he lied 2 mi abt many tings...i reali dun understand...i told him wat he's doin is bad...n he listens...he lied tt he stopped doin it...but i found out other wise...now...he's nth 2 mi...he owes mi $...n its sumting tt ive been tryin 2 get back 4 so long...n e ting is tt i reali need e $ now 2 buy lots of stud tt i reali need...haiz...i reali dun understand tis guy's tots u noe...wat can i do...i reali duno...haiz...if ani1 hus readin tis crap im writin haf ani advise on wat i can do...plz tel mi...coz i reali duno wat 2 do... with love, xoxo goner...
5.11.04 @ 14:16 juz nw tt amaths ar...hai~...1st few question noe how 2 do...den once go 2nd page onli ar...die liao lar...alot duno ar...al juz hamtam 1...esp tt 9mark question 11...i cant even get e stupid Q coordinates...how 2 go find e midpt n gradient of e stupid perpendicular bisector...den lyk tt how 2 go find tt stupid area of tt stupid triangle PQR...kao...its not tt i duno how 2 do leh...juz tt they can dun chank so much info together a not...den tt question 12 oso...anihow do de...onli 1st parts noe how 2 do onli...e last part ask e part ask solve e equation...anihow do oso...die liao lar...e most can juz pas lar...but lyk tt i oso hapi liao...beter 2 get a C6 den F9 rite...haha... ok lar...enuf of e stupid xams le...prom nite ard e corner liao...most ppl oreadi got wat they gona wear le...but mi leh...hafnt even found 1 tt i reali reali lyk sia...die le lar...onli left 20 daes...hopefully can find wat i reali lyk...haha...k larz...enuf le...tym 2 go relax...slack...slp...n...dun bother abt aniting else...haha... with love, xoxo ar~...
4.11.04 @ 12:17 ar...i made a stupid mistake juz now durin e emaths paper1...crap eh...i go n remember e wrong ting sia...angle @ centre = 2 angle @ circumference...corect wat...onli tt i use e wrong angle @ centre...kao...wasted leh...2marks leh...sia lar...haiz...but nvm lar...at least i noe i did my best le...onli make stupid idiotic mistakes onli...stil got hope 4 emaths paper2...but den tml e amaths i reali duno lar...i juz try my best lor...c wat can hapen... ytd e eL paper ok lar...not tt bad...but i exceed word limit by abit 2 much le...section 1 shd b 350 to 500...i go write 500++...section2 shd b 250 to 350...i go write til 440+...at 1st tot write more nth wil hapen...but hor...tis lihong todae den tel mi they wil stop at 350 n 500...den e remainin de onli look thru onli...gd nv ad marks...wrong den minus marks!!...haiz...y nv tel mi earlier...haiz...now regret oso no pt le...hu ask mi ytd got so much inspiration...(not breathin in tt inspiration lar)...nvm lar... now stil got 11 more papers 2 go...reali hope tt can du wel...den can get into e courses i wan...onli ting i can tel myself is tt i can du it...n e same goes 2 any1 hu's readin tis...u can du aniting u wan s long s u believe u can...haha...ok lar...enuf of my crap le...hai...later den go do a little bit of amaths...c how lar... with love, xoxo 1 down ... 13 to go ...
2.11.04 @ 11:23 haha...juz finish e ss paper le...heng ar...al e structured essay al i noe de...al fr sec3 text...so...its a gd ting i didnt study e sec4 text...haha...most ppl fr my sch go do e switzerland question...but i siao siao go do e japan 1...haha...den its lyk cant find ani1 else do e same question de...onli wen i met lihong den he sae his sch most ppl do japan de...haha...crap...wel...at least joanna's rite...wat i dreamt didnt cum out...n dd did cum out lor...haha...crap rite...haha...now finish 1 paper le...13 more 2 go...17 daez b4 o lvl end...23 daez b4 prom nite...haha...ppl e most countdown 2 end of o lvl onli...not many go countdown 2 prom nite de...onli i siao siao go count...haha...aniwaez...tml eng so dun need go study de...now muz fa fen tu qiang...go do both e n a maths...hai...hopefully can get a2 or b3 4 emaths...amaths...dun xpect much...pas i hapi liao...haha...i'l cum back n rite again mayb on fri...after amaths...haha... with love, xoxo tml xam liao~...
1.11.04 @ 15:01 ...tml xam liao...xian de leh...if dun do wel den wil ruin my life le...but nvm lar...every1 oso need 2 go thru it de...haha...hopefully i wun get ani mental block again tis tym round...if not my resultz wil end up lyk my prelim physics lyk tt ar...haiz...aniway...e ting tt i shd b hapi abt is tt at least i study finish 1.5 rounds of ss le...everytym study til e diplo n deter wil dun feel lyk studyin liao de...duno y de...weird rite...tml beter dun cum out stupid dd sia...sumtyms juz wish tt we dun haf 2 learn such ting s dd in ss de...haiz...aniwae...2 ani1 hus readin tis crap here...gd luck 4 ur o levelz...haiz...haf 2 go n study again...xian~... with love, xoxo |