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28.2.05 @ 21:29 haha...just now got back my results...haha...l1r5 16...den minus 2 4 cca...become 14...l1r4 13...minus away 2 become 11...haha...i'm so happy...my english got a2...got what i wanted...so happy...so happy that i cried...then pass all subjects except a maths...that is expected already so never mind. but i got e8 for that so...happy...haha...happy happy happy...haha... with love, xoxo 11h 29min 30sec
@ 03:30 the time now is 3.10am. just 11h 49min 37secs to 2pm. i can't sleep. i thought that having sleepless nights would only occur to others, not me. however, i was wrong. half the time have passed since 4pm that the countdown started. the shorter the remaining time, the more awake i am. no words can describe how i feel now. i'm even starting to refret agreeing on continuing work. i should have waited till my results are out then confirm with them. i'm terrified by the thought that communications and media management would not be a choice for me, by the thought that an ace in english might not be possible. the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointmeny. what i'm going through now is exactly what i thought would be months ago. confussion, terror, low self confidence, having hald of me dying to know the results and another half too afraid to want to know. by now, i'm mentally and phycologicaly tired but emotionally and physically alert. i know i have to sleep causemy thoughts are getting more and more disorganised. i can see it throught this entry right here right now. *3.23am 11h 36min 50secs* but i cant seem to be able to bring myself to sleep. stress and tension are to be blamed. i try thinking happy things worth celebrating but i cant seem to think og any. where is that special someone when i need him? has he appeared in my life? or...maybe not. all that i can hope for is that there can be a shoulder for me to cry on when i get my results. i know that keeping it inside is not good. it's best to let it all out. girls can afford to cry anywhere. unlike boys. where probably the only avaliable 'crying ground' is their room, behind closed doors. with love, xoxo :)
26.2.05 @ 21:30 haha...i'm back....just now went to book the chalet for ourselves...all those crazy workin people...dont know how much time we spent sitting at the coasta sands information counter the past 2 nights...haha...anyway...while most of my friends are quitting this month, i'm continuing til whenever my school starts...but...i really hope that some of them stay on. so i wont be the only kid working there. haha..anyway, monday is the big day. now, coming to think of it, i really think that i dont know what i'm thinking...haha. i know its crap that im writing here. but that's probably due to the fact that results are really coming out soon. haha. alright. dont really know what else to say here. so ... byez... with love, xoxo results on monday :(
24.2.05 @ 20:15 results are confirmed out on monday. 28.2.2005. i'm scared that i wont get into the top choice course, communications and media management. why. cause im afraid that i wont get a1 or a2 for my english. its not that my english is not good or what. its just that im afraid that the markers wont agree with me on my argumentative essay. i'm wondering if i had chosen the right question. but that's all in the past. what's done is done. if that's the case then i can only go for my second choice, media studies and management. thats slightly easier as it requires an a1 to b3 for english. i think i can get in to it. i hope. well...all that's already done. the only thing i can do now is wait. and wait. and wait. for monday to come. so i can get my results. to know what will happen to me. i know that i wont cry for my a maths results as i know that i will attain a f9 or e8. the subjects that i will be crying for not doing well will be english, biology, physics, e maths and combined humanities. its not that i've totally forgotten about my chemistry. its just that i'll be more than happy to have a b for it. cause...i've not gotten a b for chemistry for a very long time. and as for my chinese, there's no need to fear cause i've already gotten my results for it, a2. haha... so. that's that. nothing i can do. just have to wait till monday, 28/2/2005, 2pm. worst thing is that i'm not working on sunday again. and on monday. so...i'll have 2 days to scare myself at home. or maybe not. maybe i'll just run out and find my friends. haha. with love, xoxo *
18.2.05 @ 12:17 haiz...so xian...work at nite reali xian...tts y i can write al tis crap here now...sumore tonite i'll b at e ulu ulu place...haizzzz....xian....lucky ling same shift s mi ar...if not i tink i'll rot dere...haiz...reali xian...tml oso nite de...xian~...den...sundae off...den...mondae nite aGaiN....haiz....thou nite got more $$ ar...but stil v xian de leh...wake up so earli den got nth 2 do...den...most of my frenz dey al alwayz work mornin de...xian ar...!!!...plz ar....stop makin mi work nite shift again ar...onli left 2wkz onli leh...gime work dae tym lar...nxt wk...resultz cum out...haiz...duno if tt dae got work not...if got work ar...beter let mi work nite de...so can go back sch get resultz mar...den can cry cry wif al my other frenz hu wil cry...laugh laugh wif those hu wil laugh...but in e end stil cry...coz tears of joy mar...haha...haiz...v long nv go back sec sch le...duno how e band sound now...dun reali dare 2 go back lar actualy...coz...scared tt dey wil sound reali bad...coz...dey change conductor...again...change 2 tis ong guy...nv seen him b4...nv heard of him b4 oso...duno wat he'll do lar...oso...haiz...duno lar...haiz...todae quite pathetic lar...work at 5 but wake up at 9+...duno wat i doin...den now...onli got 1 word 2 describe mi...xian...haiz...k lar...enuf xianin ppl 2 death wif tis xian entry liao...c wen i fre den cum again lar...btw...i hafnt play mahjong yet leh...keep playin cards til nv play mahjong...haiz...nvm lar...haiz...okok...c ya... with love, xoxo wo de shen yin zai xiao/ lei zai biao/ dian hua na tou de ni ke zhi dao/ shi jie ruo shi na me xiao/ wei he wo de zhen xin ni ting bu dao
13.2.05 @ 23:31 All that i ever wanted never seemed to happen to me. I have done so much but nothing seems to come out of it. It's just amazing how things happen these days. Things that i wanted to happen never happened. Things that i wanted to own never ends up with me. People that I fall for never fall back for me. I really don't understand why this always happen to me. Is it that I've done something wrong in my past life or is fate playing jokes on me? This is not the first time this is happening. Somehow it always seems that those guys always fall for those people around me. I do not want to know the answer to the question that I might be hoping to know. I'm so afraid that what I've heard is true, which means that its hopeless for me. I just hope that those passing remarks are unreal. But I do not dare to ask. I'm so afraid to be heartbroken. I'm so afraid of the truth. I'm afraid if him knowing the truth. I've long forgotten how it feels to be heartbroken. But I'd rather lose the feeling than to recover that feeling once again. Or in simpler words about how I feel, I'm just afraid of it. I think too much about should or should I not do the things that I wanted to do that I forgot about what it means by the work 'risk'. I think and don't act. Whereas people normally act and don't think. Listening to the news, there's so much about tomorrow, valentine's day. It hurts the most when someone you feel for don't feel for you or he/she just simply don't know how you feel just cause you're too scared, just like me. If I'm too scared, the only thing that I can continue doing will be looking at him from afar, hoping that he doesn't realise, hoping that he'll just look my way and perhaps know how I feel. If not due to the fact that I had this feeling that things would work our fine for me with him, I wouldn't have admitted to myself that I do have this special feeling towards him. Or maybe it was just something that I thought of and not act upon, therefore causing the whole senario to be the way it is now. with love, xoxo =)
11.2.05 @ 18:45 todae's another borin dae...haha...at hm e whole dae...but at least got ting do lar...play my bro's xbox 4 duno how many h...den nw...xian again lor...hai...how xian can a person b...s xian s mi lor...haha...aniwae...i finaly can go back work tml liao...yes...haha...k lar...duno wat other crap i can write here le...so...lets juz wait n c wat happens lor...haha... with love, xoxo 2nd dae of cny...
10.2.05 @ 12:32 yo...todae new yr 2nd dae...xian...haf 2 wait 4 mi sis cum back...pathetic u noe...i onli get 2 red packet tis yr sia...haiz...xian...alwayz at hm de...ytd go temple pray pray...den...nv du aniting else liao...watch tv n sms til 2+ in e mornin...den...juz nw slp til 10+...dun even feel lyk wakin up in e 1st place...but...no choice lar...hmm...mayb later i go watch tv again...den crap ard my sis...den pester her 2 give birth...wat else ar...duno lar...lets juz c wat happens later...hai...tml stil nv work...my mom sae mayb go sentosa c e flower tingy...aiya...wan c flower c mi can liao wat...haha...at 1st my mom wan todae go istana de...coz todae got a few bands performin dere...but my sis cumin back lar...so...nvm lar...at hm oso gd lar hor...but v xian leh...muz wait til sat den can go back work...can rot at hm de leh...btw...heard fr ppl tt 25/2 might b e possible date 4 our o lvl resultz...duno if im lookin fwd 2 it or not...1 side of mi wana noe e resultz but e other side of mi scared 2 noe it...afraid tt i wun get a's 4 el...4 humans...afraid tt i wun get gd grades 4 bio,phy,emathz...afraid tt i wun pas chem...realise tt i dun bother abt amaths...if i get an e8 or d7...i wil b sooo hapi oreadi...haha...but reali lar...dere's 2 much 2 wry bt 4 e resultz...i've been wryin abt it since end of last mth...hai...but no use wryin oso lor...rite...wats done is done...k lar...if im bored tml i'll write more crap here...byez... with love, xoxo tml cny...
8.2.05 @ 19:47 tml cny...not reali in e mood 4 it leh...lyk v xian lyk tt...my frens al go back work on fri...onli i go back on sat...at least 3daez wun c my frenz ar...wil mis dem de leh...duno lar...duno wat 2 sae lar...i tink after get red packet n resultz i wil noe le...haha...k lar...got tym den cum write more junk...zz.... with love, xoxo wu yue tian de ge~~
2.2.05 @ 15:30 wu yue tian -- sun wo kong ru guo yao rang wo huo / rang wo you xi wang de huo wo cong bu pa ai chuo / jiu pa mei ai guo ru guo nen you yi tian / zai yi ci chong fan guang rong ji de zhao wo / wo de hao pen you wu yue tian -- jue jiang wo he wo zhui hou de jue jiang / wo jing shuang shou jue dui bu fang xia yi zhan shi bu shi tian tang / jui shuan shi wang / bu neng jue wang wo he wo jiao au de jue jiang / wo zai feng zhong ta shen de chang zhe yi ci wei zi ji feng kuang / jiu zhe yi ci / wo he wo de jue jiang (jiu zhe yi ci rang wo ta shen chang la la la...) wu yue tian -- pun so qia wu li / wa jia bue ko dua / wu li eh puay pua / wa jia wu ko shua ni na bue song / wa si li eh pun so qia / ta gang / tia li eh xim shua wu li / wa jia bue ko dua / wu li eh puay pua / wa jia wu ko shua li na hua he / wa si li eh pun so qia / ta gang / tia li chuo gua with love, xoxo plain emptines...
@ 15:10 hey...im back...4 e pas wk most of e tingz haf been fine lar...xcept mayb a ting or 2 lor...but other den tt al not tt bad lar...mm...den i 'suddenly' got a family at work lor...quite funi de lar...my uncle is oso my son lor...den...my son got no father de...i tink i pick him up at e roadside or sumting lyk tt lar...haha...den my mother n father sot sot de...got quite a no. of aunties lar...haha...crazy de lar...mm...i tink i haf been tryin 2 get tingz into clear regions which is impossible lor...i try puttin tingz in2 black n white...but i alwayz seem 2 4get tt there's a grey region ard...its not onli rite n wrong u noe...its everyting tts happenin nw...i put my tots in2 wats rite n wats wrong...i put my belongings in2 big n small...its lyk...weird...but i reali duno how 2 sae wats happenin coz i oso duno watz goin on...i've been tryin 2 get a clear idea of wat i wan...but...i juz cant...dun understand y...but mayb tingz r meant 2 b e way it is nw...i noe most ppl wun noe wat i'm sayin here...i dun blame u...coz...i duno 2...so...mayb after cny i'll get tingz rite...so...i gues e nxt entry wil b after cny...wel...tts tt...c ya...xing nian kuai le...wan shi ru yi... with love, xoxo |