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28.2.05 @ 03:30 the time now is 3.10am. just 11h 49min 37secs to 2pm. i can't sleep. i thought that having sleepless nights would only occur to others, not me. however, i was wrong. half the time have passed since 4pm that the countdown started. the shorter the remaining time, the more awake i am. no words can describe how i feel now. i'm even starting to refret agreeing on continuing work. i should have waited till my results are out then confirm with them. i'm terrified by the thought that communications and media management would not be a choice for me, by the thought that an ace in english might not be possible. the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointmeny. what i'm going through now is exactly what i thought would be months ago. confussion, terror, low self confidence, having hald of me dying to know the results and another half too afraid to want to know. by now, i'm mentally and phycologicaly tired but emotionally and physically alert. i know i have to sleep causemy thoughts are getting more and more disorganised. i can see it throught this entry right here right now. *3.23am 11h 36min 50secs* but i cant seem to be able to bring myself to sleep. stress and tension are to be blamed. i try thinking happy things worth celebrating but i cant seem to think og any. where is that special someone when i need him? has he appeared in my life? or...maybe not. all that i can hope for is that there can be a shoulder for me to cry on when i get my results. i know that keeping it inside is not good. it's best to let it all out. girls can afford to cry anywhere. unlike boys. where probably the only avaliable 'crying ground' is their room, behind closed doors. with love, xoxo |