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skin by: Jane
* bored *
27.4.05 @ 18:24

haiz...juz found out tt my cds has priority over e orientation...crap...means i've to go 4 my orientation late...n stefenie sae tt we'll get info on e orientation ytd...but...hmm...i've not gotten it yet...haiz...xian...so borin sia...earlier in e dae wen out shoppin...didnt buy much lar...onli brought 2pairs of jeans...stil tinkin abt which mp3 n shoe 2 buy...hai...i oreadi count le...buy both i at least need 300 lor...den its lyk my tis mth salary wil *voom* n den disappear...or at least most of it lar...haiz...tink mp3 buy creative de beter...coz ipod v e ex lor...its lyk *dots*...y i wana buy mp3 ar...coz...on my way 2 sch n back ar...reali v e xian lor...if no1 sms me ar...its lyk borin til can die de...can rot dere...i noe...its onli a 20+min trip but...serious lar...cant take e boredom lar...im e type tt cant b left alone 4 a short period of tym...unles i ask 4 it coz i haf 2 do sumting...tts a dif case...haiz...so sianz...tink tt ive lost interest in sumting tt i did...i feel sad 4 him ar...kanah fr mi lyk tis...2nd tym le...hai...but duno lar...at 1st tot tt can give him chance...but turns out tt i reali cant force myself 2 lie 2 myself lor...coz i cant even lie 2 him...sadz...haiz...not my fault...haiz...

* mian qiang shi mei you xin fu de. dui bu qi, wo yuan ben yi wei wo men neng gou chong xin kai shi...dan...zi chong ni kai shi dui wo you huai yi shi, wo bian fa xian ni shuo de yi dian dou mei cuo...ying wei wo wu fa zai ci gei ni ji hui. huo xu ni shuo de dui, wei mian hai you gen duo zhi de wo qu zhen xi de ren. xi wang ni bu yao tai nan guo. yuan ni neng zhao dao yi ge zhi de ni qu zhao gu de ren. zhe yi qie bu shi ni de cuo. cuo zai yu wo tai kan de qi ni. yi wei ni yi gai guo. yi wei ni bu hui zai fan chong qian de cuo. yi qie dou shi wo de cuo. wo bu gai ji xu qi pian ni. wo zhen de bu neng chong xin xi huan ni. dui bu qi. bu yao hen wo. ye bu yao ji xu ai wo. *

with love,
xoxo




tired
23.4.05 @ 16:46

kinda bored...doin research 4 my hw...later need complete my part 4 e project...but tink cant complete todae lar...coz dun tink printer can print later...got sum prob recently...haiz...i tink i cant take it animore le...mornin study den at nite go work...juz 3 tymz per wk i oreadi dead tired le...dun get enuf slp...todae off den oreadi slp 10+h...but dun tink enuf...haiz...dun bother lar...hu ask me wan go 4 tis cds de...zi zhuo zi shou...haiz...k lar...dun wana spend 2 much tym here..haf 2 go continue my research...k...

with love,
xoxo




tired
@ 16:39

kinda bored...doin research 4 my hw...later need complete my part 4 e project...but tink cant complete todae lar...coz dun tink printer can print later...got sum prob recently...haiz...i tink i cant take it animore le...mornin study den at nite go work...juz 3 tymz per wk i oreadi dead tired le...dun get enuf slp...todae off den oreadi slp 10+h...but dun tink enuf...haiz...dun bother lar...hu ask me wan go 4 tis cds de...zi zhuo zi shou...haiz...k lar...dun wana spend 2 much tym here..haf 2 go continue my research...k...

with love,
xoxo




wateva tt needs 2 b said.
19.4.05 @ 19:46

lyk i said...i'm not gona tok abt syf animore...now its tym 4 mi 2 do tingz tt i shd...

to the cornet section:
i apologise for anything in the previous entry that might have hurt you guys or made you guys felt bad. this is the 4th time i'm apologising on this matter. i really hope that you guys will be angry about it anymore.


to the whole band:
if you guys really think that whatever i've said on the previous entry was saddening, i hope that you guys won't feel that way for too long. life has to go on. if you people don't want me to go back to school to attend your band practices again, send me a email and tell me. even if you guys are not going to give me any reason, i'll accept it. all that i want to say is i hope you guys will do well in band in the future.

tts al tt i haf 2 sae 2 e band. wishin u guyz al e best...hope tt al e tears shed 4 u guyz r not wasted.

with love,
xoxo




crstwnds
16.4.05 @ 22:51

aniwae...if u guyz cant take e comments abt syf rite...den its juz 2 bad...i juz feel tt i haf 2 sae how i feel...dun hate me or even start a fight...coz i m bothered 2 write abt u guyz coz i do give a damm abt u ppl...dun sae im bullshitin u...coz i'm not...

with love,
xoxo




crestwinds syf 05...
@ 22:21

ok...went for crestwinds syf on thursday...during the interval...some of them asked me how they sounded...all that i told them was that i'll tell them after they got their results...and obviously...they didnt ask anymore after that...cause they got a bronze...so what was my thoughts about their performance?...actually...set piece sounded like shit...but...all bands that i heard were the same...their landmark(choice piece)...was...what i would say...not as good as i thought they would be...cause i heard how good they sound in the band room...so you can say that i was kinda let down by them...but...actually...overall i thought it was still ok...except the squeaking...but...who cares...on the way back to school from singapore conference hall, kenneth and clayder were talking crap...so they successfully pissed off the rest of the brasses...back in the band room, grace low talked to them about the whole thing...i think she did a rather good job about it...but...i have changed my opinion about a section in the band...i think that they are just full of lesbians and bullshit...which section?cornets...i'm not talking about the seniors who have graduated...they rock ok...but this year's is crap...they blame everyone else except themselves...so what if they have wan wei and daphne there?does it give them any right to critise others?bullshit!...come on...cornets' first note didnt sound that good either...so stop blaming those who have the first note...and please...kenneth JOKED about getting cop...he didnt mean it...come on lor...dont tell me others never hated the band and wanted the band to do badly lor...i really cant stand it...i thought that daphne will be the last person to be scolding people...but hell...she joined amelia in blaming others...the surprise is that wan wei didnt say much that day...she (for once) controlled herself...she should be proud of that...i have to agree with something joel said that day...'its all over liao lar...dont blame anyone else lor...its our own fault' or something like that...its what i wanted to tell the band...shut up and think about how well you played...it wasn't a wonderful performance...not in singapore conference hall and definitly not in the band room after that...dont tell me that i dont have the right to critise you guys...i have the damm rights ok...so please...just think about what the hell was the problem...stop blaming each other...stop breaking the band further...a band should be united...not seperated...use your brains and think...stop pushing the blame...whatever's done is done...let me use a phrase shun man used to say to me after exams...'no use crying over spilled milk'...ok...its time to move on...dont give me a reason to go back to school just to scream and yell at you on this matter...ok...whatever it is...you guys will always be my juniors ok...i wun hate you guys for this cause i'm not a petty person...just think about what should be done now to prevent such things from happening in syf 2007...whatever happened happened for a reason...its a lesson to be learnt...stay optimistic...not pessimistic...ok...whats important is that you've tried your best...dont brood over it for too long...

with love,
xoxo




project ar...
13.4.05 @ 14:00

...aiya...bu zhi bu zue 1 wk nv update blog le...hmm...juz came back fr my 2nd lesson of e cds...e lesson kinda borin lor...coz...its al abt e history of china...den its lyk 'zzzzz'...so borin lor...but other den e borin lessons...got gd pts oso ar...erm...e.g...met tis gal called maybelin...she reminds me of shun man...haha...duno y lar...haiz...den...ytd mornin wen 2 c doc...coz got ear infection...pain leh...den got e ear drop...n of coz e most irritatin antibiotic...crap u noe...alwayz get amyoxycillin...crap ar...i hate e taste u noe...ammonia...*yuckz*...disgustin...den last nite got fever...lucky now ok liao...ear oso not pain liao...erm...hai...now need 2 go n search 4 info on e ming dynasty...hai...project...xian...cham...tml stil need wake up earli earli go mit my gors go c syf...my band 1st band in e mornin...hai...hope tt they'll get gd resultz...or at least keep 2 a silver...hope tt we'll not b let down...k le...enuf crappin...haf 2 go do research liaoz...buaiz...

with love,
xoxo




z
8.4.05 @ 21:12

...duno wat im doin...actually wrote an entry liao...but...tinkk pres sumting wrong...den...it disappeared...haiz...xianz...aniwae...been doin sum (window) shoppin e past few daez...finally send al e tingz tt needs 2 b sent todae...$0.80 juz 4 e stamps 4 a 122g package...diao rite...haiz...recently dere seems 2 b sumting missin...i noe sumtings missin...but i cant seem 2 b able 2 put my finger 2 it...haiz...mayb i''ll b able 2 noe wats wrong after i tok 2 my gor later...its funi...i'm able 2 solve ppl's probs but i cant solve my own...interestin rite...hmm...dun reali noe lar...my possible cause of tis weird feelin might b coz im uncertain of wat e future holds...n brings in2 n outa my life...so...tt might b e cause ba...i tink mayb i juz need a listenin ear...2 listen 2 mi once in a while...coz thou i haf so many close frenz...they're either bz workin...bz wif their own stuf...or bz doin hu noes wat...not tt i'm sayin tt wrong or tt im not doin it lar...but...duno lar...4 example...dere's 23ppl online now...amg which 4 of dem used 2 b my close frenz...but yet how many windows r opened now?erm...3...1 4 tis entry...another 4 e webmsger site...e other is e ppl online ting...which leaves 0 4 conversation...how much more pathetic can a person get...haiz...dun bother...or mayb juz...cant b bothered animore...tts wat i tink...its lyk wen ppl need mi 2 b dere 4 dem im alwayz dere...but wen i need dem 2 b dere 4 mi...hmm...dey seem 2 disappear...ironic rite...help others in need but others 4got abt mi...haiz...k lar...enuf of al tis crap le...its abt tym i go do other tingz le...oh ya...1 more ting b4 i go...hapi bdae 2 (wang) shimin tml worz...ai ni wor~!hehe...

with love,
xoxo




sch n shoppin...
4.4.05 @ 22:03

ok...got e cal juz now after work wen shoppin...haiz...i got in 2 e chn ting...crap...haiz...but dun bother lar...i've 2 start lessons nxt mondae...den every mon wed fri haf 2 go 4 lesson...9 to 12...haiz...mean fr now on haf 2 work nite on mon wed n fri le...means i cant watch csi le...*sobz*...haiz...sian...den e xian-est ting is tt...haiz...duno...haha...oh ya...haf 2 go china...XIAN~~~~~~~~...haiz...but...no choice lar...haf pros sure wil haf cons de ma...everyting balances out in e end...juz lyk algebric equation...haha...ok...y did i brin maths out of e blue...hmm...sumtingz wrong wif mi...haha...aniwae...tml haf 2 wake up at 7...coz haf 2 go e checkup tml...finish checkup...muz go work straight...sian...den...go hm...den...wed off...xian...oh ya...wed shd go n photocopy al e tingz...n...go take pic...n...go shoppin sumore...haha...been shoppin 4 2daez le...brought shirt jeans...n 2 skirtz...haiz...stil not enuf leh i feel...but...aiya duno lar...juz wait n c lor...if enuf den enuf lor...if not enuf den go buy sumore lor...haha...crap...i dun even noe wat on earth i tokin...haha...k lar.z...b4 i go ani crazier...beter go rest le...ok... buaiz...

with love,
xoxo




chunks of crap...
3.4.05 @ 13:43

hmm...ytd wen shoppin wif my mom...buy quite alot of tings...shoes...shirt...skirts...blah blah blah...funi leh...its lyk no matter how much i buy it stil feels lyk its not enuf...mayb its a mental ting...hu noes...sumtym ard tml or e dae after i'll noe if i get into tt china ting le...dun reali look fwd 2 e reply tt they'l gime...coz i haf tis horrible feelin tt i'll get in...n...means tt i'l haf 2 go 2 china...*sobz*...i juz cant stand e tot tt i haf 2 go dere lar...aiya...hopeles ar...den...if i get in means i haf 2 start sch e wk after nxt...den...means i might not b able 2 take tym out 2 go wif my band 4 their syf...aniwae...i got e permission liao~~...hmm...den...tuesdae haf 2 go 4 e medical checkup...xian...duno wat tym i workin on tuesdae stil...if work mornin den haf 2 cal n tel dem i wil b late le...crap u noe...gime e appointment tym s 9am...means i haf 2 wake up earli...xian...den e worse ting is i dun even noe where on earth is e place...go find street directory onli haf e chn de...den later try go find e eng de c if can find or not...if stil cannot find den...take cab dere liao...haiz...xian...mm...i now tokin 2 heidi...den realise tt abt 1/3 of my clas go tp...n in e 1/3...got 7 in busines sch...crap rite...others they better u noe...coz they got ppl same course s dem...gd rite...not lyk mi ar...im e onli 1 in my clas 2 end up in e course lor...crap...haiz...wel...at least i noe 2 of e many other ppl in my course...haha...amg those 2 got 1 close de n e other not close 1...but at least noe them lar...u not...den no matter how bored i get durin e orientation or e beginnin of e term i oso got ppl tok 2 n crap ard wif...haha...crap...hmm...oh ya...e entry wif e lyrics 4 memory n e rose rite...i alwayz wana find de...but onli todae den finaly rmb 2 find...so...i juz put it up lor...coz...i reali lyk those 2 songz ar...den...both noe fr band de...esp e rose...bringz back lots of memories abt my official openin...those crazy tymz we spend in e band rm lamin ard wen we shd b practisin e rose n stand by mi...n i was e youngest den...den stil haf e tym btween e finish of e fanfare in e hal n b4 we go 4 e nite tym de...7 teenagers...sitin in e classrm...playin games...eatin bread n drinkin mineral water s forfeit...lame...haha...aniwae...those hapi tymz wil nv b back again...haha...aniwae...most prob i'll join band again...juz 4 e sake of fun...haha...ok...gtg le...few daez later den cum back...hmm...by den i'll noe if i get in2 e china ting...haiz...wish mi luck~!...

with love,
xoxo




e rose
@ 13:14

the rose

Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower, and you it's only seed.
It's the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes a chance.
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dyin', that never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies the seed, that with the sun's love, in the spring becomes The Rose.

with love,
xoxo




memory
@ 13:14

memory

Midnight

Not a sound from the pavement

Has the moon lost her memory

She is smiling alone

In the lamp light

The withered leaves collect at my feet

And the wind begins to moan

Memory

All alone in the moonlight

I can smile like the old days

I was beautiful, then I remember

The time I knew what happiness was

Let the memory live again

Every street lamp seems to beat

A fatalistic warning

Someone mutters and the street lamp gutters

And soon it will be morning


Daylight

I must wait for the sun rise

I must think for the new life

And I mustn't give in


When the dawn comes

Tonight will be a memory too

And the new day will begin


Burnt out ends of smoky days

The stale cold smell of morning

A street lamp dies

Another night is over

Another day is dawning


Touch me !

It's so easy to leave me

All alone with my memory

Of my days in the sun

If you touch me

You'll understand what happiness is

Look, a new day has began


with love,
xoxo




hapi april fools~!
1.4.05 @ 13:57

haiz...juz nw wen 4 e interview le...aiyo...todae april fool dae den i tel so many lies juz nw sia...i was lyk crappin al e while lor...al e ans i give al funi funi de...sot sot de...haiz...so xian lor...den...ytd got e enrolment ting liao...stil need go 4 medical checkup...siao...den muz mail back al e ting by 11/4...duno lar...den need 2 take pic...muz take nice nice de...if not ar...horrible ar...coz haf 2 c tt pic 4 3yrs u noe...malu de leh..haiz...den juz nw...finaly juz nw i got e ans tt i wanted 2 noe le...thou e ans's not wat i tot i wld lyk 2 hear...i didnt turn out 2 b devastated by it...s i tot i wld haf been...i was kinda...pleased to noe e ans lor...mayb coz i saw it cumin le...so...i wasnt sad at al lor...not coz its april fool tt y i lyk tt sae lor ok...but coz its fr my heart lor...haha...mayb i wasnt sad coz i was givin up on it oreadi lor...i might stil sum feelin 4 him lor...but...i feel tt e kinda feelin i haf now is dif fr last tym de...now e feelin is juz normal de...so...after al tis mths' ups n downs it might al juz b a crush-turn-fling kinda ting...so...i'm not sad...haha...aniwae...tingz r finaly back 2 normal btween mi n otherz le...so...seriously i've proven my theory i had last yr...steads cum n go every now n den but frenz stay by u al e tym...its alwayz beter 2 haf e oppo gender s frenz...coz...i duno y...haha...lame lar...aniwae...frenz r 4eva...u noe...so...crap lar...duno how 2 end of tis entry liao...siao liao...ok..if i eva haf a new target...ppl hu read tis wil alwayz b 1 of e 1st 2 noe...haha... ;)

with love,
xoxo