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29.7.05 @ 15:34 i'm in the library again. going to search for some information on the net about my med soc project. think going to do my marketing journal later. so bored. everyone's busy doing projects at this time. cause the projects are mostly due next week or the week after. so. ya. tomorrow going to skip work. have to rush my work. going mcdonald's to complete. hmm. think thats about it. later going for band. erm. after that go back work there tell them i can't go work tomorrow. hope they won't kill me. erm. think thats about it. with love, xoxo b l E h
28.7.05 @ 14:18 bleh so bored. had med soc tutorial in the morning . got back the test results. not that bad lar the marks. at least i didnt fail. got a B. not that bad. erm. now supposed to be having ess gra lecture. but mr guo didn't prepare anything for us. so. ya. slack time!!...haiz. erm. last night did project. med soc and marketing. kind of alright. got somethings done. marketing journals are due next week. i've only done one out of four. lets hope i can finish them all by sunday. think i'll be pon-ing work on saturday. very tired. erm. alrights. got to do other stuff now. hee. with love, xoxo 27.7.05 @ 14:50 this is so boring. thought that a press conference would be fun. but. i'm falling asleep in the LT. cannot believe that a press conference can be SOOO boring. oh no. makes me dont want to be a jounalist anymore. *thinking of other job options*. so sleepy. slept for 13.5h already. but still so sleepy. can't think of anything. later still have the marketing tutorial. so bored. next semester we're going to change class. sad. can we not change for the 1st year??!! haiz. k lar. enough crapping. still trying to survive the press conference. buaiz. with love, xoxo ^ tired ^
26.7.05 @ 09:20 alright. yesterday went for the tpsu interview with lee bing and her friends daniel, jeremy and shu hui(i think). played the mini soccer thing with pool's cue ball. quite lame but ... we were bored. and of course. played pool. yile and me got the same interiviewer. and both of them were our gl's during the fow. really nice people. hope i answered well enough to get into sub-comm. went for band after that. mr. tan came again. he thought that i played D natural but i played D flat. maybe i was flatter than i'm supposed to cause i was super tired at time. but it was funny. playing without tubas for about an hour. funny the way it sounded. or should i say it as super funny. haha. well. my toe is much better now. my mom rubbed it last night. i was screaming. it hurt like crazy. fell asleep soon after that. very tired. didn't want to wake up just now in the morning. rainy day = great day to sleep in. zzz. having marketing lecture now. *tired* still have lessons till 4pm. tonight will be the night that i sleep early and wake up late tomorrow. alright. enough talk. be back soon. with love, xoxo o - u - c - h !!!
25.7.05 @ 11:41 so unlucky today. just now alighted from the bus accidentally dropped my bag. OUCH! my dear laptop inside my bag leh. my heart pain ar. but when i got out from the bus i realise something. my toe hurts ar. now it hurts. ouch. lucky my baby laptop never scratch or what ar. or else i cry liao le. my laptop's my baby leh. cannot let anything happen to it. my baby now slightly more than 1 month old le. hope when it comes to the first year, my baby can still be in perfect condition. ya. my toe still abit pain lor. just now when in the mac lab really pain ar. pain till i want to cry le. later going do project with maybelin, janice and charlene. after that going meet elieena go talk with her about something. then have to meet yile go for the tpsu recruitment thing. hope i get in. that;s not the end for today yet. still have to go band later. haiz. tired.need some day off from everything. wore contact lense today. think my eyes were slightly dry earlier on. had this feeling that my contact lense were going to fall off my eyes.lucky they didn't. now having the media and society lecture. the people from MDA are here to talk about stuff. hmm. it's been kind of boring till now. or is it because i've not been listening? haha. so now i know that m18 is mature 18. hmm. think should be listening attentively in class. be back later. with love, xoxo 22.7.05 @ 15:23 sad ar. last night watched the results of jue dui superstar. sebestian got kicked out. sad. he's cute alright. but. sad ar. got kicked out already. anyways, finished and handed up my brochure for gdf. hope i can score well. last night went to print the brochure. $6 for a little assignment. sad life. after that we all went for dinner. georgie didnt eat the whole day. then i force her to eat McDonald's meal. cause i was afraid she would faint. we walked around and took lots of pictures after that. very fun. but i haven't got the pictures yet. maybe i shall put them up in friendster when i get them. =) so bored. miss my friends. later have to go for band practice. i still have about 3hours left. hope my battery will not die on me. been doing alot of thinking. thoughts will be up at my friendster's blog. not now. later. hmm. have to go now. find other stuff to do. buaiz. with love, xoxo 21.7.05 @ 11:59 alright. i'm nearly done with my gdf assignment. only left with 1panel. hope i'll do well for it. so that my marks can be pulled up. or else i'll be damm sad. cause i'm already kind of sad due to the stupid marks that i have for the journalism mid sem test. haiz. anyways, after my chalet with my beloved 4.7, and hours of sleep at home, i feel so recharged. it's as if i've been plugged in to a power supply and charged for many many hours. hmm. feel like i've been reborn. erm. maybe that's a bit of an exageration but hey, that's how i feel now. alright, have to go now, be back later. listening to the debate in med soc tutorial. i'll be back soon. =) with love, xoxo 19.7.05 @ 17:23 so bored. now at cyber center with xin yi. tomorrow going to stay back in school till 9pm. have to complete my brochure. if not will die. miss my chalet. later going home sleep. tired. k lar. nothing much to say. later going take my harry potter and the half-blood prince. with love, xoxo if only i cna trn back time
18.7.05 @ 16:38 hmm. i thought i had him out of my head. but when i saw what was there, i feel a lilttle pain in my heart. is it because he's still in my head? it feels good when he's near me. but. i know that i shouldn't be feeling this way. why is this feeling coming back to me? i thought that i already have another in that place. but it seems like it isn't so. why do i feel this way. both of this supposedly forgotten are coming back into my head. oh no. why??!! i think i will need one to be there for me so i don't have to be thinking about this now. if there's someone there, there wouldn't have been a need for this thoughts to be going through my mind. suddenly i feel that i'm unable to control myself. i told myself in the past that these two would be out of my head totally at two different times. but they just come back again. haiz. why!!??why must this happen again and again??both of them didn't know how i feel neither in the past nor now. i hate this. i really don't like this. makes me feel so horrible. i miss those days that i don't have to be thinking about love and stuff. just living happily without any worries. miss the days when nothing is the problem. even if the sky falls i'll still be standing strong. gone were the days that the things mentioned above happened. hatet this feeling that i know everything i wanted could only happen in my dreams and no where else. here are the days whereby my mind and heart has matured and wants more than i can ever have. this sucks. sorry i have to use this word but truly the world that i'm in sucks big time. i want to go back to the past. if only i can turn back time i'll turn it back to the time where i was a 5 year old kid so that i can do the things that are right and not the things that are wrong. i hate the real world. i hate it so much that not many know that i hate it. haiz. this sucks. everything comes with a secondary condition. sometimes i feel that i'm being used. to an extent that i feel that no one can be trusted. but i know that there are some whom i can always trust even if the sky is falling. i was fooled by people in the past when it comes to trusting them. that's why i'm more careful about it these days. let's hope that these horrible experiences wouldn't repeat itself or it'll be a total humiliation to me as being alive. crap. i hate this life in this moronic world. haiz. with love, xoxo i love 4.7!!!
@ 14:51 yes. i'm finally back from the chalet. now i'm in school. have to wait till 6.30 for band practice. kind of boring lar. but anyway, i had a great time at the chalet. this is what happened. first day + night the first day just went to check in and buy the necessary things. quite a lot of the class turn up for that night. had pillow fights, mahjong, cards, blah blah blah. really had a great time. play and play and play. finally i learnt how to play bowling. ya. finally. so fun. i thought that if i played the ball would go to the drain all the time. but luckily, it didn't. at least some of the pins fell. hee. played with shi han, shimin and junteck. peter joined us later. fun. muahaha. went to play pool also. with the same people only without peter. kind of crazy the way we play. really lame also. i got a lot of tai-ko shots. maybe cause of the bottle of disgusting lime booze i had earlier. hee. second day + night well, had to wake people up from their sleep to go for breakfast. that jiasheng said "i'm wide awake" and 3minutes later he's asleep. had mcdonald's for breakfast. bleh. went shopping for more food and drinks again. the guys went to k-box in the morning. so unlucky, my camera batt died on me again. felt that every chalet i go to the batt will die on me. haiz. marinated the chicken wings myself. *hope that no one had stomachache after that* by around 4+ most of the people are already there. got really pissed off by the guys. all they did was sitting in the room playing and not many were out helping out with the pit. haiz. but after some time most of them were out helping. so it wasn't that bad. erm. at night we got bored. and slept. but during the bbq quite alot of things happen. 2 of the better drinkers got drunk after 3 bottles and 2 bottles. after a while another 1 got drunk after 1/2 bottle. all 3 got drunk after 'cai-quan'. then where's the other person. that's me. i drunk a total of 3 bottles and i'm still as awake as ever. muahaha. proves that i've got good 'jui-liang'. =). then later in the night yi gang come and join us at the chalet. all go siao siao. third day + night not many people left there. only had a few. nothing much to do. nothing much to say about. most went back at 5+. only shi han and shi min stay back with me. peter came back from bugis around 6. we all went to play bowling again. at night we had KFC and 3 tubs of ice-cream. throw the pillows here and there. nuts we were. watch 'wo de ye man nu jia jiao' together. laugh and laugh. then they all went back at 11. then i alone at the chalet the whole night till this morning. so boring. haiz. hmm. nothing else to say about the chalet. but i really love the class. i love my 4.7. they rock. hmm. k lar. nothing else to say le. hmm. got to go and lame around in the library. maybe go sleep somewhere. hmm. with love, xoxo * interesting *
14.7.05 @ 14:15 interesting. never knew that actually quite a number of people know about something. wonder how they knew about it. hmm. anyway. got news that gdf is by friday. yes. can slack. so i didn't do much today. just printed out the med soc assignment. that's all. talk quite a lot of crap. erm. still hungry. later going grab something to eat. after that go work. all the way till 10.20. so tiring. after which i'll go back sleep. and finally tomorrow's the chalet. haven't packed my stuff yet. haiz. have to pack them tomorrow. haiz. k lar. have to go already. i'll be back here on monday. when i'm in school again. aiya. tomorrow still have band. still have to come back school. have to rush from chalet to school to chalet again. tiring. haiz. k lar. really have to go. buaiz. with love, xoxo bleh.
@ 13:15 got to do gdf. don't know how to do. totally lost. tomorrow's the chalet. so busy trying to complete everything. most probably have to report late for work later. maybe going to tell them i go start at 6 or 7. or else i can't complete the gdf. haiz. sucks. hate this crap. stupid hp got low batt. think hp won't survive through cds. crap. hate this crap. how to start my hw. really hate this stuipid thing. why so many things to do. hate this crap. let's hope that gdf is due on next friday. so i can do it next monday. and i don't have to rush through all this crap now. haiz. hate this. no time. how i wish that there's 48h in a day. if only time can pass slower. haiz. hate this. i hate gdf!!! hate this crap. crap ar. i hate this one week break. break like no break like that. still have all this assignments. hate this. bleh. with love, xoxo tiring tires a tired one
12.7.05 @ 19:57 haiz. got back from work. tired. now trying to search for information on med soc assignment. at first i thought of writing about violence in mass media but later i changed to cumulative theory of media. not sure how to go about writing it. most probably going to screw up the assignment. cumulative theory. hmm. or should i write about the steorotyping. no idea. going to write crap i think. have to finish all my assignments by thursday. friday going chalet. so rush. media issues. what to write. yesterday was one tiring day. went to work at 9(of course i was late). finished at 5. go school for band which starts at 6.30. ended at 9pm. went to look for my mom at some karaoke place. reached home at 11. slept at 11.30. woke up today at 8. so reluctant to wake up. i'm not getting enough sleep. i'm not getting enough rest. i'm not having enough time. i want to go shopping at op. so much that i want to buy before the gss ends. ya. i'm talking about the great singapore sale. not only aunties go shop during sales alright. people like me who want to buy alot of things but dont have too much money do that too. i'm not the only one. bleh. work is so irritating. stupid customers. stupid excueses. stupid reasons. stupid people. isn't it obvious that i'm only a teenager? stupid morons call me aunty. fish and ducks. snakes and ducks. are they blind or what. morons who think that they're the only one in rush. can't she see that i'm like waiting for her to take the stupid tissue paper? i need to change money. i can't help it if the other customer wants the tissues that you took. who asked you to place them there? a human only has 2 hands. but yet you took 3 baskets. basket. haiz. irritating. mind's in a blank. can't think. miss my friends. miss my sleep even more. miss the days that i dont have to worry about not being able to hand in my assignments. miss my secondary school days with shimin shun man and joanna. miss having someone to be there and take care of me. haiz. so much that i miss. don't know how many of the abovementioned miss me. sad life this is. with love, xoxo after-tests
9.7.05 @ 13:53 haiz. finished all the tests in school.start working again. found out that even the gdf assignment is due on monday. means i have to rush all the work by this coming friday. *xian* i thought of what to write about for med soc already. but haven't find the information. later going work again at 4. so bored. haidir and shimin working morning shift. i'm the only one working at night. haiz. boring. think i'm going to slack quite alot later.maybe go help out write things and stuff. having a headach now. horrible. i hope that i can get some days off and do my assignments and go out with jia zhen and georgina and kareen. even if i want to go out with them i can't cause i've work everyday. i'm like so fully booked. but i dont feel happy about it at all. don't have the time to spend with my friends. so afraid that i can't finish my assignments on time. feel so sick now. haiz. nothing much to say. with love, xoxo timeless
4.7.05 @ 15:14 yesterday i really feel like slapping one of the customers. give her her things in 2 bags she said that that's a lot. "didn't you want to make people save the bags?why give me so many bags?you don't know how to ask ar?" crap right? its only 2 bags. not like i gave her 20. put the vegetables together, she say you don't know how to put the heavier fruits below ar? later my vegetables flat ar! she clever she ownself pack her things ar. keep going on and on and on about giving her 2 bags.crazy or what. feel like slapping her stupid face ar.cannot take it. then after her is another couple, she ask the lady if she have the member card. she wanted to use her own card to get the points from the next customer. such a *****.want more points buy more things then can ma. idiot. lucky the next customer, the couple, very nice ar. after that woman left, they talk about that woman. they say she sound like those disciplinary masters in school. but come to think of it my primary and secondary school disciplinary masters all very nice de. never had such a horrible person as disciplinary master before. serious ar. felt like slapping her freaking face up down left right front back center ar. on friday went to celebrate shun man's birthday. went shopping, movie, food and pool. really gone crazy. initial d is NICE!!!must watch movie of the year. edison so suai!!! it's kind of lame ar some parts but its really very very nice. there's this 'ming yan' that i got from this movie. 'she me shi shen? shen ye shi ren. zhi shi shen zuo le ren zuo bu dao de shi. suo yi ta shi shen.' lame right. but this phrase was repeated like 4 times in the whole movie so its like ... diao!!! so much to do in so little time. tomorrow's the J1 test. think i should have studied enough. things that i should know i think i know. thursday's med soc test. *xian* friday work til next thursday. next friday to sunday got chalet. on the first week of school i'm supposed to hand in med soc assignment and gdf asignment2. both the chuah's subject. *xian!!* haven't started on both of them. don't know if i can manage to complete it or not. i failed my gdf assignment 1 with a F. i don't bother. i can't draw. i failed art in secondary school. i anticipated it in the first place so i don't bother about it anymore. haiz. got to go. don't think i studying anymore for J1. going to play x-box i think. k. with love, xoxo h m m
1.7.05 @ 09:04 ok. today's the last day of school before the mid-semester test. so bored. the preparation for my 4.7 chalet cum bbq is not that bad. have most of the people going. now i have 28 of them. hmm...decided that the amount each of them going to pay is $10. so by the end of the day i'll collect about $270? ya. subtract away the cost of the chalet, will have about $165 ba. erm. that's about it for the chalet. i think i have the answer to why i feel kind of alone sometimes. i can feel that there are some of my classmates don't really like me. but i don't really bother. i'm a diplomatic person. so if they want to socialise with me or not i won't mind. however, not all of them that i don't really talk to is cause i know they don't like me. but sometimes i feel that they have their own world. so i do feel kind of weird talking to them when i'm with them. but ... i don't bother really. i notice this weird situation that's happening among teenagers. it's that if we're on a crowded bus but there're seats around right, we won't take it. i'm guilty of that. really. but ya. it's really weird right. haha. last night i received an sms from kenneth(my gor), he say that if i can, can i go back to conduct my sec1s. but of course i have to know when is their band practices. if it clashes with my lectures and the lectures don't really matter, i'll go for their practices. but if they clash with my tutorials then too bad. i can't go back and help them out then. but. hopefully, i be able to go back and help them. later going bugis watch initial D with shunman, shimin, shihan, and the rest of the people. and also to celebrate shun man's birthday. erm, will talk more about the celebration tomorrow or in the days to come. got to go. having tutorial with kenny yong. got to see how interesting his tutorials are. buaiz. with love, xoxo |