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30.11.05 @ 11:46 haix. saturday and sunday night couldn't sleep. finally could sleep on monday night. but. couldn't last night again. what on earth is this. last night i was thinking. i don't seem to be myself these few days. don't know what i've been doing. weird. sometimes i just feel that i'm physically at a place but emotionally somewhere else. weird. haix. don't know what's wrong. haix. i'll be back soon. with love, xoxo 28.11.05 @ 10:13 second night that i can't sleep. wrong. the second consecutive night that i can't sleep. no idea why. was in bed trying to sleep around 11.45pm. but didn't manage to sleep till around 1.30am. what on earth is wrong with me. haix. now i feel like sleeping so much. can't seem to concentrate on the activity that i'm supposed to be doing now. *btw, i'm in tutorial* my brain is still asleep. can't think. can't spell. the only thing i can think about is the person who crossed my mind yesterday.haix. i'm not functioning properly. so sleepy. zzz. be right back later. with love, xoxo 27.11.05 @ 16:45 some would be wondering why am i blogging today. simple answer. i'm using my brother's internet access. ha. couldn't sleep this morning. sat in my room. arranging the first 7 bars. nearly gone nuts trying to arrange tuba part. so many lines to draw. idiot. if only i can put them an octave higher and ask him to transpose it an octave down when playing. haha. anyway. finally fell asleep at 2+am. and guess what. i woke up at 12 today. haha. went to np band concert yesterday. not that bad. though they played quite little pieces, their pieces were long. and when i say long, it is LONG. enjoyed myself at the concert. but. someone kept appearing in my mind throughout the concert. haix. i know i shouldn't be thinking about this person. but somehow this person just appeared. been thinking about this person through the whole of yesterday. and still today. no idea why. someone enlighten me please. haix. sorry. haix. why am i saying sorry? no idea. just feel that there's a need to say sorry to this person. haix. i'm really really sorry. i couldn't do what you wanted me to. sorry. even if someone else comes around, i won't want to have anything to do with that person. because everything that that person do will only remind me of the way you do are able to do it far better. sorry. sorry i've let you down. haix. i don't know what to say. the only thing i can say is haix. never mind. maybe someday things will change. haix. with love, xoxo 25.11.05 @ 17:32 the time now is 5.27. so lazy. feel like sleeping. later still have to go for band practice. hope there'll be many people. and not just a handful of us sitting there. hope we'll be able to have the concert. tomorrow going for np's band concert. going to hear some rather familiar pieces. *yawns* so tired. if only i can sleep. haix. finally thought about signing up for the ne forums. but just remembered. only allowed to sign in 2weeks before the date and so meaning that i can only sign up for it tomorrow. haix. so bored. tired. sleepy. zzz with love, xoxo @ 09:30 i've learnt my lesson today. if i ever ever feel that i'm going to be late for lecture, i'll stay at home. thought that i would not be late for lecture today. but ended up being late for 11minutes. got off the bus and nearly ran to the lt. why on earth must our lt be all the way at the end??!!stupid. do you have any idea how freaking far it is from the bus stop!!!stupid. by the time i got in i felt like i just finished nafa test. what on earth. anyway. yesterday i finally went jogging. i can't believe how breathless i got. jogged for only 3 rounds and was like half dead. but can't blame. haven't jogged or done any excercise for like one and a half years. *oh no. can't believe its been so long* the last time i jogged was like during my nafa test last may. it's been long. alright. too tired to type. maybe i'll be back again later. or at the end of the day. i don't know. don't bother. haha. alright. should start listening to the lecture now. hee. with love, xoxo 23.11.05 @ 11:28 so bored at lecture. not listening to anything that is being said. zzz. and kareen is sitting beside me. think she's going to fall asleep soon too. haha. so hungry. tomorrow have to stay at home again. mom's going out with her friends to somewhere i don't know where. and how am i supposed to sleep well when the morons are drilling out the bricks at the void deck???!!! every morning from 8am on they'll be making so very much noise. sooner or later i'm going to go crazy sitting at home. watched harry potter on monday. nicer than i thought it would be. heard from a lot of people that the victor krim's good looking. but once i saw him, i was like =_-". he look old. haha. i mean he just doesn't look his age. anyway. enough crap. i'm falling asleep in lecture. whatever that he's saying in lecture is basically what we heard yesterday in tutorial. so boring. zzz. alright. enough talk. be back soon. probably on friday. with love, xoxo 21.11.05 @ 11:27 alright. now in lecture. per com. i would have to say it's the most interesting lecture this semester. i'm going to watch harry potter later with my primary school friends. they rock. haha. hungry. watching the 2.30 show. think it'll end at around 6. think will go for dinner with them before band. so hungry. saw shihan this morning on the way to school. found out that he's going to watch harry potter with shimin they all this evening. crap. never mind. this time can't go with them for movie. planning on watching with them x-men 3. making plans already when i don't even know when x-men 3 is going to show. hmm. think that's about it for today. will be back if there's a need to. smilex. =) with love, xoxo 18.11.05 @ 16:42 i'm back. finally. think i'm boring myself to death. so xian. i totally don't like the online learning thing. i seriously prefer lectures and tutorials. haix. feel so sleepy. feel so much like sleeping. it's not like i'm not having enough sleep or what. but i just feel sleepy all the time. haix. don't know what i'm thinking about now. haix. ok. can't think of what to say anymore. i'll be back soon. with love, xoxo 16.11.05 @ 11:39 haix. i'm so bored. sitting in lt. thinking of something. something that i maybe shouldn't be thinking about. haix. what on earth am i doing. had a chat with one of my friends yesterday. talked about some stuff. on monday, i talked with another friend and this friend asked me a question. by right the answer is supposed to be either yes or no. but the answer i gave was ok lar. if i had said yes, it would be going against someone else's wish. however, if i had said no, i would be lying to myself and to that friend. haix. don't know what i should be thinking. haix. so confused. so troubled. so...bored!!! haix. so sad. can't go for otc this year. cause this year's otc is on the date that band is having concert. so sad. t_t suddenly miss the times that i had a year ago. just a year ago i was still preparing for o levels. and suddenly a year later i'm sitting in a lt having this lecture. such a sad life. whatever. with love, xoxo 11.11.05 @ 10:16 woke up this morning. feeling irritated by my mom nagging for me to wake up. now i really know how it feels when people wake up on the wrong side of the bed. after that, something kept appearing in my mind. the images of what used to be. sigh. why do these images have to appear again. sigh. this is horrible. too many things happening at the wrong time. haix. what on earth is happening to me now. had too much time to think yesterday. what the fish. my email's no longer working. damm. i've made this new email but stupid adium just can't log in. great. now finally log in. but have to add all the emails in again. haix. can't remember all. trying my best to remember now. haix. alright. i'll be back soon. with love, xoxo 9.11.05 @ 15:51 i'm so pissed off today. went for lecture's break and return to find that i can no longer log in to my hotmail account. some stupid moron must have changed my password when i didn't notice. so freaking pissed. until now i still can't sign in. freak. i don't know what on earth happened but i'm freaking pissed about it. crap. haix. anyway. the chalet before school started was fun. but didn't play pool though. went for bowling and obviously i lost to the guys. lost to them by quite a lot. haha. erm. settled what i wanted to settle. kind of happy that i did. though it didn't turn out as i wish it would but things still end up fine. got to go. will be back on friday. with love, xoxo |