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24.12.05 @ 21:07 yes i know. there's still a week before the end of 2005. but hey. i'm bored. so. here goes the review. 2005 alright. i'm going to do this review in one of the stupidest way i can think of. let's do it the operation statement for each quarter way. haha. jan - mar 05 alright. january to march. basically this period of time i spent it all on working and working and working. didn't really have much of a life. oh ya. got acquainted with the others working with me. they're crazy people. but not as crazy as someone i ended up knowing later in the year. and think that's what i've been doing in my working life in that quarter. but still. february was the time that our .: o lEveL rEsuLts :. were released. i cried coz i got an A for english. to be frank that's only the second time in my whole life that i've gotten an A for english. the first time was my psle. but that's that. i really worked hard for it and i'm glad that i got the grade i wanted. got quite good results. though i failed A maths but i tell myself at least i've tried. and the results improved from an f9 to an e8. haha. i know. it's only a grade and its still a fail. but i tried my best for it. though i was kind of disappointed in my combined humanities marks but hey, overall i'm a happy girl. then it came the time to choose the institution that i wanted to go. did a lot of thinking. and ended up putting my current course as first choice. i'm glad i didn't get into my second choice coz its too far away and i would have to wake up even earlier to get there. so i'm happy. hmm. that's all for the happy things in the first quarter. and now the sad things. well, my heart was broken once in march. but who cares. i'm over with it now. though it wasn't easy for me to move on. but hey. i did it. hmm. what else. don't think anything else makes me sad in that quarter. so. oh yes. before i forget. i dyed my hair in march. haha. so. next please. april - june 05 april came and its time for my secondary school band's syf competition. i went for it. went back to school with them and well, wasn't really pleased with their attitude at that time. and i wrote it here, in my blog and some juniors ended up hating me. i realized my mistake and apologized to them. and that's that. during this period i'm still working. and that took up 80% of my life. got the posting results. they placed me in where i belong now. some days later some person from campus called and asked me to attend this plugging thing's briefing. went for it. went for the test the next day. and also went for the interview. ended up in the plugging cds. at first i thought it was rather promising. but soon i realized it's more boring than fun. but hey, i still want my 9CUs. so i went on with it. made some friends from there. but i still don't feel really relaxed there. school started in may. didn't really feel at ease in school. feel like something's missing. all that time i miss my secondary school friends. coz somehow i can't seem to click with the people in my course. thankfully, in june, found some people in my class who are ... how should i put it ... more like my secondary school friends. and of course there's the .: pSycHotIc girL :. who ended up being one of my best friends in poly. but i didn't know she would be so psychotic at that point in time. i only realized it later. anyway. she's a really nice friend. will elaborate more in the later parts. i think that's about it for april to june. oh ya. the most important thing that happened in june. i brought my baby laptop. july - sep 05 hmm. i would say that the late part of this quarter was the happiest times i have this year. anyway. chronological order here. july. think that's the time i got into band. at first when i told my friend in junior college which band i'm in. my friend was like 'you've got to be crazy. that's the worst poly band lar.' but of course after the many practices that i went for i started to disagree. and i think i've changed my friend's opinion too. anyway. remember i said i totally miss my secondary school friends? i organized a chalet for my class. most of them turned up. had fun. bowling and pool. happy days. alright. school started again. and soon, national day. took part in the celebrations in tampines. quite fun. made more friends in band. knew someone who in the end gave me the happiest times of this year. after that was the arts fest in school. and later got into the student union. went for the camp with the roaches flying around in the sports complex. all this time i got to know someone better. and after that was the annual general meeting for student union. went to help out. after that. examinations are coming. studied with a person that no one would ever thought i would study with. since this person is not in my course. but. that's another thing. well. september came. examinations are over. my birthday's coming. just some days before my birthday and after the examinations, the .: hAppIesT tiMeS of the yeAr :. started. he was the .: bEst thiNg thAt haPpeNed to mE thIs yEar :. . i haven't been that happy for a very long time. but really. september was the best month in this year. anyway, i celebrated my birthday with my poly friends. they made me cry on the roof of esplanade. the mini cakes. so touched. but it was all ruined by the two roaches that decided to pay us a visit on the roof. crap. but. i was still happy that day. i feel like i'm on top of the world in september. feel like nothing could go wrong. so gay (i'm straight). and my beloved psychotic friend. she's really psychotic. she can go around screaming and shouting at night in city hall. can you imagine that? but. she's really an angel when she's not psychotic. but hey. she's still psychotic. and she's only psychotic at night. weird eh. haha. oct - dec 05 in short, this is the saddest quarter of this year. the happy times left me in late october. i remember wanting to die at that time. i quit working in october too. so i was kind of jobless. didn't have anything to distract me from all the pain i'm feeling in my heart. in november. school started again. but before school started, another chalet that allowed me to drink to my heart's content. but. really 3 bottles' not much. finally went back to school. felt like crap at that time. really felt like dying with all the online learning thing that is more like a lullaby and with the heartache that i was feeling at that time. didn't work so i have got loads of free time at home on weekends. kept thinking about things i shouldn't be. that's november. december came and another round of arts fest in school. went for a movie with my friends in band. that movie is horrible. the following week, submission of assignments. can't take that moronic stress at that time. was totally depressed. seriously felt like there's no point in living. that wasn't too long ago. just last week if i'm not wrong. seriously i was depressed. felt like everything i did was useless. wasted. thrown out the window. of course i made it through at the end. thanks to those who cared and bothered reading my blog. if not for them, i might still be suffering from it. might even have gone drinking. but really. i'm alright now. i think i've left the past behind me. like he once said .: fOrgEt tHe pAst aNd chEriSh thE prEsenT. :. i will cherish the friends that i have by my side all the time. thanks. and now. the last week of this year, i'm going to make full use of my time. go shopping for the formal clothing that i need. still need a couple of shirts and shoes. running out of cash. haha. that's the sad things in the last quarter. as for the happy things. i've got a tuition job. just started last week. just went for a session today. really nice kids. conclusion in short, this year has really been a roller coaster ride for me. think i've been to the extremes this year. extreme happiness in september and extreme sadness in the last quarter. all i can say is that the events that happened have and will make me stronger than what i am now. sadness follows my happiness this year. but i will make sure that i have not been sad for no reason. i will take this sadness and turn it into my strength. to all my girl friends out there, i love you!!! don't worry i'm straight.! haha. to all the guy friends, i love you guys too! but. as friends only alright. don't think too much eh. haha. to be able to have friends like all of you makes my life worth living. thanks for everything and anything that you guys have done for me. no matter how little it is. even if its just helping me open the door for me to past. or even just being my friend. thanks. this is especially so to those who have listened to me talking about my problems. and even more to those who gave me advice on them. and even more so to those who were there by my side when i was depressed. thanks. with love, xoxo |