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edge of sanity
31.1.07 @ 12:34 i'm being pushed to the edge of sanity. i'm losing my own life. i feel as if i'm not living my own life anymore. every morning, i wake up, i'll ask myself, can i not go to school today? going to school is like ... so depressing. i don't get joy out of it anymore. its a chore. i can't take it. it's like everytime i go to school, i'm not me. i'm not having my own life. it's like i'm no longer being alive for myself, instead i'm alive for the freaking responsibilities and those idiotic projects that are killing me. do you know how it feels like to feel like crying every single freaking day because of the people you have to work with in ALL your projects? its not that they make me do all the work or what. its the freaking way things are being done. a little pressure will enhance one's performance, but this amount of shit pressure these two are giving me are breaking me apart. even when i'm studying for o levels i didn't feel so shity. i'm too restricted in everything. i can't dress the way i like, i can't do the assignments in a way that i don't have to do the things i hate doing. i'm pushed to the limit. i'm just a step away. one more step and i'm gone. with love, xoxo |