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drifting~
17.11.07 @ 16:40 hmm, met up with qinghui, desmond, jolene, yile and olivia yesterday. went to FOOD EXPO! takoyaki~~ haha. ate and ate and ate. lucky didn't really spend a lot. if not i'll be having a hole in my pocket liao. haha. went over to airport. wanted to go t1 or t2. in the end we ended up in t3. lolx. took many many photos. jump and jump but we just can't really seem to coordinate well with the timer. lolx. finally went over to t1 at lyk 11pm. let mr desmond have his chicken. always eating ar desmond? took 27 back to tampines and omg, qinghui missed her last bus home. told her to like get a cab home but she insisted that she'll walk home. poor girl. only reach home at 1.30am. tsk tsk. its all GARETH's fault! lolx. anyway, attended my god-grandfather's (my god-father's father) funeral yesterday before school. while attending the funeral, i realise i have a new phobia. i'm afraid of having people cry in front of me, because if they cry, i'll feel like crying too. argh. anyway. all the aunts are crying there. very sad. so while i was there, i thought of some stuff. - i would want a funeral band at my funeral. but please. make sure they have more than 1 song in their repertoire. - my mom told me that if a person dies, his/her spouse cannot send him/her off. if that's the case, i'd rather my other half die before i do. at least that way, he won't have to suffer. - losing a family member is sad. but losing the one you love (i.e your spouse) is worse. - i don't dare to think of my parents being gone. its too saddening a thought. i wish they'll never go. - will my friends from my first 19 years of my life come send me off at my funeral regardless of race and religion or any other factors? - how on earth do people cope with losing a loved one? at the funeral, i thought of my paternal grandfather's funeral from 12 years ago. why is it i can't remember anything from it other than the things that i was told by my family? i can't remember how my grandfather look like. maybe it was because i was very young at that time, but that shouldn't be a reason, its just an excuse. i find it a pity, because i have never seen my materal grandparents. (neither do i want to see them now since they're long gone) but hearing all the things my mom told me about them, i think it would be a blessing for me if they are still alive. maybe this applies to just my extended family. but before my paternal grandfather pass away, the family was so bonded. we'd see one another at least once a year. but since he pass away, i rarely see some of my uncles. or even worse, i haven't seen my seventh uncle since my grandfather died. and everything just got worse when my paternal grandmother joined my grandfather. i don't remember seeing some of my uncles at all. and the only things i heard about them was the uncles fighting for the stuff my grandma left behind. and worse still, earlier this year when my dad and some uncles decided to hold a ceremony for my grandparents, so few of them turn up for it. imagine, 13 years ago there are about 60 of us there for chinese new year. and this year, i saw less than 15. the population grew, but some of them just can't be bothered. all some of them care about is money. this is why when i hear my friends going visiting or have their relatives visiting them during chinese new year playing cards or mahjong, i feel very happy for them, but at the same time, i feel so jealous. i spend my chinese new years going to temples to pray and staying at home watching tv. that's all i do. when people get like 10, 20 red packets, all i get is 2 (well, 3 in the coming years) and if i'm lucky i'll get some from my maternal aunts. randy once said this to me, 'but your red packets got more money'. what he say is true, but, well, sometimes its not the value of the red packet, but its the feeling of getting red packets. (pauses to think, how did i get from food expo to funeral to chinese new year?) argh, drifting so far from what i started out with. bleh. anyway, ya, school's going to suck more now that i've got scriptwriting synopsis due in 2 weeks and filming in the next few weeks AND the irritating mid sem test coming up. damm. why is 3.2 so stressful?argh. kbox next saturday! yeah~! guan pu~ you better make saturday free! or we'll chop you into a million pieces! anyway, time to stop typing and let the pictures do a little talking. still waiting for olivia's pictures. haha.     to qinghui: hah. bet you didn't know i took you and desmond's picture!  pegs brought from jasmin at ccn day. Labels: photos with love, xoxo |