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talking to qinghui
29.1.09 @ 16:11

i was talking to qinghui about random stuff and we ended up talking about marriage. so our beloved qinghui (a.k.a. mrs quek) asked me to aim for a boyfriend. this is what i said to her ->

15:59:23 I say: haha go find a vendin machine

15:59:35 I say: called 'BOYFRIEND VENDING MACHINE'

15:59:50 I say: tong $1 inside n vowala~ bf drop out..hahaha... =x

lame. i know.

p.s. desmond, get qinghui an onion ring when you propose to her, because she said onion rings are tastier. lol. =x

with love,
xoxo




cny
28.1.09 @ 12:07

HAPPY MOO YEAR!

so fast, and it's the third day of cny already. and worse still, i'm already back behind my desk in the office. sian.

anyways, cny has always been the same for the past few years. going to temples to pray for the new year on the first day and waiting for my sister to come back for pizza lunch on the second day. i don't go visiting, because i'm not close to the relatives. it's been pretty much the same since grandma pass on. i don't dislike the fact that i get less ang baos than other people, i'm fortunate enough to be able to rest my body on the mattress watching tv, no matter how boring the shows are. i know how to be thankful, even if it happens once in a blue moon.

hmm, i don't know if it's just me, but it feels like the cny spirit's kind of gone. i don't feel that excited about cny anymore. last year it was because of atv project, but this year there isn't really anything to stop me. (maybe except the fact that i'm on duty on the second day which spoils my mood.) but really, i don't feel that excited anymore. it's like another public holiday, but with more meaning. maybe it's part of growing up, i don't know.

people say we get wiser as we grow older. but i beg to differ. i was watching the taiwan version of are you smarter than a 5th grader? last 2 days and i realise that there are things that i'm not so sure of now as i were before. maybe it's the distance between me and the books, but i kind of have the feeling that it's just an excuse. =x

ah well, with all that said, maybe it's time for me to go back to my super collapse 3 on my psp. i've to train my brain before it rusts. =x

HUAT AR!!

with love,
xoxo




fly away
24.1.09 @ 11:24

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.
-> got it from hariani, maybe i should tag her again. =x
jolene
judith
olivia
jerome
georgina
melissa
randy
april
aqidah
jaclyn

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
- room in your heart
by living in a box

2) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
- hey you
by a1

3) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
- 对你有感觉 by 江美琪 and 光良
erm, i feel romantic? maybe not ba.

4) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
- 妹妹要快樂 by 曹格
oops, does this mean my life purpose is to be happy? hmm, kind of true maybe. =x

5) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
- crawling by linkin park
erm, i'm crawling my life???

6) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
- maneater (dance remix) by nelly furtado
-__________-""""""" is that really what they think of me??

7) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
- something like you by n'sync

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
- 一人一半 (duet Version) by 881 (soundtrack)
how to share, perhaps?

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
- jolly holiday by various artists (classic disney album)

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
- 孫悟空(live) by 五月天
hahaha, my best friend's a monkey god. kind of true, since randy's a monkey. =x rofl~

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- vesuvius by frank ticheli
O.o

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
- go!! by FLOW (naruto soundtrack)

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
- 如果没有你 by 白光
omg, how come i get an old song at this question?????

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- aku cinta pada mu 天天天天说爱你 by 阿牛
HAHA.

15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
- the kiss by alan menken and horward ashman (aladdin)
hmm, maybe it's the kiss that produced me?? =x

16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
- the world by NIGHTMARE (death note soundtrack)
erm, not exactly a good choice eh? since it's from DEATH note. but well, kind of techno-ish, may be able to help sweat off the fats. hahaha.

17) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
- 夏天的浪花 summer waves by 张惠妹

18) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
- Sing Sing Sing - Louis Prima - Arr. Iwai(1) by tokyo kosei winds
wah, finally a band song. and yes i love to sing~ just that it'll rain when i do. =x

19) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
- persis by james l. hosay
hmm...they've braved through thick and thin with me? yes! haha. wth.

20) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
- say my name by destiny's child

21) HOW WILL YOU DIE?
- fool again by westlife
so which idiot will be the one that fool me and cause my death? =x

22) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
- broken youth by nico touches the wall (naruto shippuuden)

23) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
- toy soldiers by martika

24) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
- smurf billy rock, smurf billy roll (hillbilly rock, roll) by the smurfs

25) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
- feelings show by colbie caillat

26) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
- smurf macarena (macarena) by the smurfs
haha, i'm scared of smurfs doing the macarena.

27) DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
- cartoon
-_-

28) IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
- listen to your heart (pocahontas) by various artists

29) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
- 相信無限 by 林俊傑

30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
- fly away by black eye peas

with love,
xoxo




updates!
23.1.09 @ 11:50

hello! miss me? haha. yes, i notice i didn't update for some time. i got reason one ok? haha.

17/1/09 -> Mel's birthday
i'm so glad i went for her celebration lar. enjoyed myself VERY much. finally meet up with georgie, april and jiazhen after SOOOO long lor. laughed our guts out, especially during the 'mr and miss' thing. omg, so funny lar. she planned for a dance session after the makan. wah, i tell you, i should go dancing with jiazhen and georgie more often. that way, i can burn off all the extra calories! lol. had a really enjoyable night with them.

i can't tell you how LONG the wait for 4N is lar. me and randy missed a bus at 1am, then we waited till around 1.50am before the next bus came. gosh, i nearly fell asleep waiting for the bus lar. we had another choice of NR7, but i was too lazy to drop at downtown east and walk back home. =x but well, i REALLY enjoyed myself that night. can't wait till i meet up with the girls again! and of course meet up with bmf for a jog, soon. =x

20/1/09 - 22/1/09 -> stress management course
poof i'd tell you, the course was alright. BUT, some goondu stepped on my right baby toe on the first day!!! and darn, i ended up with a swollen toe. =( but thank goodness, mommy put aleo vera on my baby toe. so it's getting better now. =) learnt some stuff on stress, like good and bad stress. also learnt about financial management, like what we're supposed to do with our money once we get them (save, pay, spend). that's one of the few lectures that i didn't fall asleep in. (not hard to understand why =x)

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so well, CNY is just 2 days away. i look forward to the 2days public holiday. but i don't look forward to the 3rd day when i've to come back to work. got my new clothes ready, but i'm kind of short of bottoms. =x haha. ah well, i'll come up with something.

(crap, i'm having mental block)

oh ya! i got my hp back!! yes! after 15 long days i finally got it back! i missed you so much my dearest phone. heard that aaron's phone's already giving him problems within a month. eh aaron, time to send for repair lar. but wells, hopefully c905s won't have more problems, or it'd really be a waste.

alrighty, that shall be it for now. here's wishing all GONG XI FA CAI!! and i want my ang baos with SGD in it ok. haha.

with love,
xoxo




i l l
15.1.09 @ 09:32

i'm back after 5 days.

let's see what i did. went ironing on sunday. retreat on monday. mc on tuesday and wednesday.
i think that pretty much sums it all up.

i'm still unwell. *cough cough* i want to get well.

i'm under the influence of my medication, thus the slow typing.

monday's retreat was the day that i see for myself the definition of LIAR. i was told that something is done in 'A' as it has been done all along. but when higher powers ask about it, higher powers was told that it is done in 'B' (which happens to stand for bullsh*t). i had no choice but to confront that head on. it's like headbutting your opponent in a soccer match. ya, it's 'illegal' but who cares. i need to cover my own backside! liar, liar, pants on fire. and then, they dare to try to explain the reasons excuses why it is done in 'A'. ya, go on and lie some more. it's only when higher powers said 'i'm not convinced' did the lie stop. hah. you are dead meat, man. like the chinese saying goes, 老虎不发威,当我是病猫. which roughly means, if a tiger doesn't fight back, you treat it like a sick cat. (translation may not make sense in english. reason: brain not working as per normal)

gosh, i feel so ill. i want my pillow.

with love,
xoxo




photos
10.1.09 @ 13:07

yeah i'm back with PHOTOS! =)






i took like 100 odd pictures, but only when i was uploading the pictures on to facebook did i realise actually more than half are slightly blur. crap lar. i need stabilizers. haha. but well, at least i still have 50 odd nice picutres. =)

anyway, a storm's been brewing in the office in the last few days. i'm like stuck in between two parties. crap lar. i don't know what will happen on monday's retreat. hopefully no one will get hurt.

hmm, i guess i will be rotting at home till mom comes home with food at maybe 4pm? then go out to this fun fair thing with mom then meet my beloved section for dinner! but then, hmm, not all of them will be there. but well, it's better than none at all! =) happy kid.


如烟

我坐在床前 望着窗外 回忆满天 生命是华丽错觉 时间是贼 偷走一切
七岁的那一年 抓住那只蝉 以为能抓住夏天 十七岁的那年 吻过他的脸 就以为和他能永远

有没有那麽一种永远 永远不改变 拥抱过的美丽都 再也不破碎
让险峻岁月不能在脸上撒野 让生离和死别都遥远 有谁能听见

我坐在床前 转过头看 谁在沉睡 那一张苍老的脸 好像是我 紧闭双眼
曾经是爱我的 和我深爱的 都围绕在我身边 带不走的那些 遗憾和眷恋 就化成最後一滴泪

有没有那麽一滴眼泪 能洗掉後悔 化成大雨降落在 回不去的街
再给我一次机会 将故事改写 还欠了他一生的 一句抱歉

有没有那麽一个世界 永远不天黑 星星太阳万物都 听我的指挥
月亮不忙着圆缺 春天不走远 树梢紧紧拥抱着树叶 有谁能听见

耳际 眼前 此生重演 是我来自漆黑 而又回归漆黑 人间 瞬间 天地之间 下次我 又是谁

有没有那麽一朵玫瑰 永远不凋谢 永远骄傲和完美 永远不妥协
为何人生最後会像一张纸屑 还不如一片花瓣曾经鲜艳

有没有那麽一张书签 停止那一天 最单纯的笑脸和 最美那一年
书包里面装满了蛋糕和汽水 双眼只有无猜和无邪 让我们无法无天

有没有那麽一首诗篇 找不到句点 青春永远定居在 我们的岁月
男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋 笑忘人间的苦痛 只有甜美

有没有那麽一个明天 重头活一遍 让我再次感受曾 挥霍的昨天
无论生存或生活 我都不浪费 不让故事这麽的後悔
有谁能听见 我不要告别

我坐在床前 看着指尖 已经如烟

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with love,
xoxo




五月天 后。青春期的诗 专辑签名会!
7.1.09 @ 15:37

hmm, my phone's in sick bay, i.e simei, repairing it's parts. i miss my phone already. =( now using my brother's spare samsung phone. so not used to it lar. i prefer my c905. ='(

anyway, i went for 五月天 后。青春期的诗 专辑签名会 at Central on monday after work. wah, so happy lar. on my way there i felt like i'm going on a first date with a new boyfriend. =x haha. waited for some time till they arrive. lucky mommy went to queue up for me since 2pm, or else i won't even get their autographs till 8+pm lar. took a total of 126 photos, but some of them are blurrrred. but wells, i'm SO happy lar. =) will upload some nice ones here and all un-blur-ed ones on facebook! a little let down was that 冠佑 wasn't there because his father-in-law pass away so he had to stay in taiwan for the wake. =( but i'm still OVERJOYED that i saw the rest of them! the autographed lyrics book (don't know if that's right) is sitting safely at home. =) i shook hands with them too. i was SO happy that i kept smiling lar! =)))

only bad thing is that after dinner with mommy, i went back to try to get more pics of them. but there's this FAT SECURITY guy with really BAD manners. feel like slapping his face up down left right front back center lar! ah wells. shan't complain much since i've got 100 odd nice pictures of my beloved 五月天. =)

all right, i shall be back on saturday with pictures of 五月天 then. and also upload their pictures on facebook! haha. still a happy kid after 2 days! =)))

with love,
xoxo




IMPORTANT
5.1.09 @ 14:39

IMPORTANT:
DO NOT CALL ME ON MY HP, IF YOU WANT TO CONTACT ME, DO SO VIA SMS!!

why?
because my speaker's SPOILT.
and it's not just my phone.
saw from hardwarezone.com.sg that the first batch of C905s have faulty speakers.
i still haven't given up hopes on it.
better give me a replacement!!!

with love,
xoxo




shut up
@ 10:56

hmm, i don't know why, but i always have difficulty locating the Straits Times in the office. i always spot last year's papers. i want new news, not old news, thank you very much. the Straits Times is eluding me! help! haha.

i think in this new year, one of the first things that i should sort out are *drum roll please* my thoughts. i should learn not to be easily influenced by what people say or do. sometimes i feel that i'm easily influenced into thinking a certain way by people around me. i keep telling myself not to, but to no avail. i must not be influenced by words.

i was on a road on a breezy sunny afternoon, suddenly came the dark clouds barricading me from the sun. droplets started falling from the sky. i look up, only to realise those are not water droplets, but pieces of ice. those beautiful pieces of ice falling from the sky. oh yes, they hurt when i'm hit, but they sure are beautiful. the ice hit me, i realise i've to let go and get out of there. i run, but it's all too late now, i'm already hurt. the storm has already started. dark clouds swirling above me, winds growling louder by the second. in a matter of seconds, it has hit the ground. i run and i hide, thinking i'll be spared. but i'm sucked up high into the tornado, spinning non stop, debris whacking me in the head. heck, they hurt like crap.

if i could wake up and slap myself silly, thinking that it's a dream, it'd be good. but it's not. all that's real. i've been hurt, battered, no way of reversing that.

i need to stop thinking, even if it's for a moment. thoughts are making me go way further than i should can, and it's not in a good way. words are like the cars being sucked up by the tornado. i need to shut up. my thoughts have to shut up. just shut up. i need to go 'ohmmm'.

be quiet now, and soak in the tranquility.

with love,
xoxo




pictures
3.1.09 @ 13:37

here they are, pictures that i owe since last year. =x

pictures from outing with yile, qinghui, randy ->


pictures taken when i went to KL ->



pictures from countdown ->


ya i know, pictures are few. below are pictures of the mountains/hills from my hotel room in KL. we got a really good deal, staying at a 5 star hotel with just SGD $128 per night! their normal price is like 400+ ringgit per night lar. great savings! =)





oh yes, and not forgetting my bimbo coach bag.


oh ya, remember i couldn't sign up for jap class because i went there too late? they called yesterday asking if i want a monday night class. i'm still thinking about it, because by the time it ends, it will be well over 9pm. so by the time i get home will be around 10+pm. hmm, still contemplating.

anyways, that shall be it for now. will be back when i'm back. =)

to be or not to be,
that is the question.

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with love,
xoxo




countdown!
2.1.09 @ 15:57

ok, so i'm late. but who cares, HAPPY NEW YEAR and you have 2 more days of Christmas left. hah.

so well, went out to meet randy, qinghui and desmond on new year's eve. had dinner at 85 before leaving for tampines arcade where the couple left. we then walked to macs opposite tp to wait/meet isaac, aaron, hariani and raz. saw shun man, shi min and bing bing at coffee bean. had a good talk with randy en route to macs and well, i'd say i'm better after that. the others arrived and randy left for church. we strolled to our emo playground only to discover kids and a HUGE family there. so we went to the kiddy playground next to it and sat on the slide. listened out to the countdown. 5 4 3 2 1! the next thing i hear is raz screaming 'HAPPY NEW YEAR' at the top of her loud voice. the funny thing is after the scream, we hear another family going 5 4 3 2 1! so it's like 2 different tv channels countdown at different time. weird i'd say. haha.

we happily stoned at the playground talking and drawing out the family tree. that's when aaron and isaac decided to climb up the monkey bar to look at the stars. how romantic eh, 2 guys looking at stars. pictures when i'm home to upload them. just when i thought bus 21 ends late, it ended at 1.06am. and we only reached the bus stop at 1.09am. so we missed the bus by 3 minutes, ah whatever. talked, stoned, walked to century square bus stop. that's when we decided to cab down to downtown east where the rest can play the night away and i can get back to my lovely bed at home. i finally reached home at 2am, kind of early i'd say. =x

but well, enough of that i'd say. i'm thinking of getting a hotel room for countdown next year. but it's erm, rather expensive. so i'm having second thoughts and i'm not sure who'll be there. ah well, maybe some other ways then.

so, that's how i spent my new year's eve. a happy one spent with loved ones. =)

may you have a blessed new year filled with health, happiness and love. =)

with love,
xoxo