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nostalgia
28.11.07 @ 20:29 losing focus in the rain. that's what i am. well, finally got all my photos from my desktop into my laptop. its so funny to look back at those photos taken in 2003 and 2004, when i was still in seconday school. not many pictures actually, but well, it sure bring back loads of memories. 2003 (sec. 3) the year of Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging for concert bands. remember those times when just the first few batches enjoyed ourselves at SYF. it was plain madness during the training camp. i remember nadia (tenor sax senior) loved saying "i'll hang you by your balls on the flag pole". haha. it was then that we had innocent, non-political band practices. oh, how much i miss those days~.     2004 (sec. 4) countdowns to O level. ain't that familiar? "do the right thing at the right time" says mrs. low. but she's always using pastoral care lessons to teach chemistry. haha. but well, we did enjoy ourselves back then. the stress that we had compared to now is n-o-t-h-i-n-g. secondary 4.7, the pure science class that played harder than we studied but still do well at the end.   the best class! (in our sailor moon uniform -_-)  shi min, shun man, joanna, me. kelong excursion. 2004. NDP! my mom got tickets but she was going overseas with my dad. so i got the tickets and asked shimin, shun man and joanna to join me. 2004 ndp: the time when we were still so close.   shimin, shun man, me and joanna at National Stadium, 2004 aug 9. then came o levels. amazing how our class manage to finish S.S and geography papers so much earlier than our rival class. lolx. but well, we definitely better than them! prom night. all the dressing up. took me a whole day lar. and the wrose thing is, our prom night's at our school hall. -_-" so after the speeches and awards stuff, picture session! haha.  secondary 4.7!  my 'boyfriend-barney' aisam!  cheryl! (she looks much prettier now!)  my BEST FRIEND, joanna~  lee bing! someone i know since PRIMARY 2! and we're still in the same school now!  my (combined humanities) favourite teacher, ms. salinah and joanna.  mdm. kamisah, the only teacher who let me write expository/argumentative essays. lolx. and the rare jun teck.  mr. collin harms. (yes, his surname really is harms.) the teacher who taught me from maths in lower sec to physics in upper sec. "i was just testing if you all are awake"  shun man, tricia and shimin.  peter mao mao! the oldest in class yet ... the shortest one. lolx.  boss of girl guides, shimin!  yueling. :)  xin yi.  tabitha, joanna, lee bing and aisam. our little family!  tricia! she's SUPER PRETTY now! too bad guys, she's attached. oh man. really miss my class loads. time to slim down to how i was back then. :P ######################### will you walk me through the rain? 769 Labels: photos with love, xoxo yesterday~
25.11.07 @ 15:20 oh my goodness. i'm so sleepy lar. anyway, kbox yesterday was FUN! well, how boring can kbox be when you have EDEN blocking the lyrics and playing with the pitch and stuff? lolx. super funny lar. and we were given a room that can accommodate 12 persons when we have only 5! so you can imagine the amount of space that we had to run around. haha. try spotting eden in the pictures! he's hidden~~   after that went shopping at topshop zara etc. and finally jolene found the scarf she wanted at espirit!haha. and guess what olivia and jolene did at RAFFLES CITY. they covered their heads in the scarf! while at espirit, eden tried on this sunglasses, look nice lar, but he don't want to buy. crap right? haha.   on our way to raffles city, we saw GABRIEL and da ge! haha. so funny lar, to see them at raffles city on a saturday. haha. had a little chat with olivia at the interchange last night. so coincidental and funny lar! cute and cartoony. hahaha. mangoes my dear olivia, mangoes. lolx. still thinking if i should come home after school tomorrow then go for band again or stay in school the whole day. sigh. completed scriptwriting yesterday morning. shall check it later in case i type some weird weird words in the middle of the night. lolx. ah well, shall watch bleach and heroes later too. hahaha. alrighty, will be back soon, hopefully tomorrow. all the funny things. 766 Labels: photos with love, xoxo .
24.11.07 @ 01:15 to randy: i'm sorry. thank you. i hate deadlines. kbox later. sigh. stressed and insecure. 765 happy birthday to you. with love, xoxo rAnDoM
22.11.07 @ 16:27 i can't believe i fell asleep just now, on such a WARM afternoon. i've got no story idea for scriptwriting. and its due on tuesday!!! someone help me! mommy? *reminder: do the synopsis on sunday!!* jupiter cafe lunch with randy and kathy just now. can't believe they look sooooo long to prepare my food. still so very sleepy. can i don't go school tomorrow? if only i started earlier. at least there's something. haha. 763. with love, xoxo time for bed.
@ 00:10 finish with watching the band video. oh man, we're soft. oh MAN, kenneth's LOUD. keep the mic away from kenneth! move the mic nearer to trumpets and trombones! supper. saw my god-sister. hmm, couldn't recognise her at first. although i just saw her last friday. bleh. taking cab to school with randy and olivia tomorrow. wee~ sleep longer! bathe. sleep. soon. i love jolene! i love olivia! i love qinghui! i AM straight. 763 days. with love, xoxo yawn
20.11.07 @ 20:01 yeah! i had crab for dinner just now. (but i'm hungry now. =.-) went over to georgie's house after class. her house is neat, for once. think its the lack of alot of stuff that makes her room neat, for once. so tired. project discussion on msn soon. i want to sleep. projects ar, projects please go away. with love, xoxo stop calling me!
19.11.07 @ 15:03 can all those weird people stop calling me on my handphone? i've been using this number for at least 5 years and i still get those weird people calling my number and asking for some weird people. especially a particular bank, they just love calling me! i don't even have an account there! argh! stop calling my handphone unless you know me!! irritating crap! with love, xoxo random!
@ 12:31 for hilarious pictures of JOLENE TAN, visit www.maybesomeday-.blogspot.com ok. enough publicity of jolene. haha. rotting in library at like noon! all thanks to randy. at least another 3hours before i'll come in contact with my little ones. kbox on saturday~! wee~~! spending my afternoon kicking people. blehx. random! with love, xoxo random
17.11.07 @ 21:28 i miss you. ok. this is random. was reading through my OLD blog entries. can't believe i mentioned you quite a number of times. today is the 758th day since that day. will you remember? you took away my nervousness then. and all this while, you stole my heart and kept it. with love, xoxo drifting~
@ 16:40 hmm, met up with qinghui, desmond, jolene, yile and olivia yesterday. went to FOOD EXPO! takoyaki~~ haha. ate and ate and ate. lucky didn't really spend a lot. if not i'll be having a hole in my pocket liao. haha. went over to airport. wanted to go t1 or t2. in the end we ended up in t3. lolx. took many many photos. jump and jump but we just can't really seem to coordinate well with the timer. lolx. finally went over to t1 at lyk 11pm. let mr desmond have his chicken. always eating ar desmond? took 27 back to tampines and omg, qinghui missed her last bus home. told her to like get a cab home but she insisted that she'll walk home. poor girl. only reach home at 1.30am. tsk tsk. its all GARETH's fault! lolx. anyway, attended my god-grandfather's (my god-father's father) funeral yesterday before school. while attending the funeral, i realise i have a new phobia. i'm afraid of having people cry in front of me, because if they cry, i'll feel like crying too. argh. anyway. all the aunts are crying there. very sad. so while i was there, i thought of some stuff. - i would want a funeral band at my funeral. but please. make sure they have more than 1 song in their repertoire. - my mom told me that if a person dies, his/her spouse cannot send him/her off. if that's the case, i'd rather my other half die before i do. at least that way, he won't have to suffer. - losing a family member is sad. but losing the one you love (i.e your spouse) is worse. - i don't dare to think of my parents being gone. its too saddening a thought. i wish they'll never go. - will my friends from my first 19 years of my life come send me off at my funeral regardless of race and religion or any other factors? - how on earth do people cope with losing a loved one? at the funeral, i thought of my paternal grandfather's funeral from 12 years ago. why is it i can't remember anything from it other than the things that i was told by my family? i can't remember how my grandfather look like. maybe it was because i was very young at that time, but that shouldn't be a reason, its just an excuse. i find it a pity, because i have never seen my materal grandparents. (neither do i want to see them now since they're long gone) but hearing all the things my mom told me about them, i think it would be a blessing for me if they are still alive. maybe this applies to just my extended family. but before my paternal grandfather pass away, the family was so bonded. we'd see one another at least once a year. but since he pass away, i rarely see some of my uncles. or even worse, i haven't seen my seventh uncle since my grandfather died. and everything just got worse when my paternal grandmother joined my grandfather. i don't remember seeing some of my uncles at all. and the only things i heard about them was the uncles fighting for the stuff my grandma left behind. and worse still, earlier this year when my dad and some uncles decided to hold a ceremony for my grandparents, so few of them turn up for it. imagine, 13 years ago there are about 60 of us there for chinese new year. and this year, i saw less than 15. the population grew, but some of them just can't be bothered. all some of them care about is money. this is why when i hear my friends going visiting or have their relatives visiting them during chinese new year playing cards or mahjong, i feel very happy for them, but at the same time, i feel so jealous. i spend my chinese new years going to temples to pray and staying at home watching tv. that's all i do. when people get like 10, 20 red packets, all i get is 2 (well, 3 in the coming years) and if i'm lucky i'll get some from my maternal aunts. randy once said this to me, 'but your red packets got more money'. what he say is true, but, well, sometimes its not the value of the red packet, but its the feeling of getting red packets. (pauses to think, how did i get from food expo to funeral to chinese new year?) argh, drifting so far from what i started out with. bleh. anyway, ya, school's going to suck more now that i've got scriptwriting synopsis due in 2 weeks and filming in the next few weeks AND the irritating mid sem test coming up. damm. why is 3.2 so stressful?argh. kbox next saturday! yeah~! guan pu~ you better make saturday free! or we'll chop you into a million pieces! anyway, time to stop typing and let the pictures do a little talking. still waiting for olivia's pictures. haha.     to qinghui: hah. bet you didn't know i took you and desmond's picture!  pegs brought from jasmin at ccn day. Labels: photos with love, xoxo argh~
14.11.07 @ 22:23 finally done with atv proposal AND powerpoint. powerpoint is crappily done. don't care about it. argh. screw the atv project! below is a ... stupid sms conversation: olivia: is bread or coffee more noisy? me: bread. because breadtalk and kopitiam. olivia: haha, yea. congratulations! you've answered correctly! you are entitld to a free pass to TP Toilet with unlimited access! you are very lucky as this pass is not available to many. thanks for taking part in our 'who's lamer than randy' game. have a nice day! talk about lame! olivia's lamer than me. *flash* deja vu. feels as if i've seen this scene in my dreams. well, walked from school to the 21 bus stop just now. just felt that i've to take a walk. in that thick and warm band polo shirt. argh. but well, its the evening sun, so not that warm. but its still warm. its only for today that i'll put that as my dp. it will be changed when i come online again the next time. realised that 2 weeks from now, i'll have to hand in the scriptwriting synopsis. oh crap. i haven't even thought of what i'm going to do for the project lar. so fast. and once that's handed up, it'll be the mid sem holidays soon. and then, another 7 or 8 weeks and i'm done with school. for good. like i said before, poly will be my last education institution. i don't rule out part time studying in the future. but full time? no way. at least that's how i feel about it now. so many assignments. so little time. i want more time. i want time to relax. blehx. another 10 days. upcoming events with our beloved eden pu! - this friday's don't know go where - next week's kbox! i miss isaac and his jokes! another 3 months before i graduate. sigh. with love, xoxo atv proposal make people stupid
@ 02:14 there's school at 11am. but i'm still here at 12.51am. its all thanks to ATV proposal. fish it. me no love storyboards. atv proposal make people stupid. supposed to have a rehearsal for tprawks just now. ended up sitting there slacking for 2hours. and there's no rehearsal. at least i had fun with other instruments. ;| spent some quality time with jolene darling during dinner break. *dinner's nice, except the vege. and there's the cute apple juice!* had a little talk. don't worry darling jolene! i'll always love you!! later's the performance. class at 2pm. argh. yesterday thoughts of him came appearing in my mind, randomly thoughts of what we did together of the sweet little things he did for me the thoughts are never ending those thoughts make me miss him so very much so many wonderful memories there are things i regret those are days that i was never able to be there for you if i can turn back time to make changes i'll make sure i can be there for you i'll make sure we last long enough for me to be there i really miss you zhen hong i really do with love, xoxo 3 sentences
10.11.07 @ 17:07 i'm amazed at how lazy i get. imagine completing a storyboard without getting out of the house. internet does wonders. i'm not feeling well. but i'm not sure what's wrong. hmm, maybe it's my brain. i've got no idea how to do that proposal. managed to finish up the script and storyboard. any idea how to do the rest? feeling so tired. even after so much sleep. what's wrong? questions game. got to be one of the best games ever. since its the only game i beat randy in. wohoho~ gareth pangseh-ed us again last night!! so not-well. argh. i don't know myself anymore. with love, xoxo all . screwed . up
8.11.07 @ 18:45 wanted to get a haircut, but didn't succeed at it. argh! anyway, went to watch "THE GAMEPLAN" with eden, qinghui, yile and jolene last night. super cute movie. loads of laughs! lolx~  i don't know why, but i'm feeling so tired. i slept like 12hours today, but i'm still yawning. the first 2 weeks of school was all about band concert. come third week, i'm superbly tired. think of it, next week i'll have to hand in my first bleady proposal. and i've not started on it yet. i don't know. maybe i'm stressed. but i just don't want to admit it? i feel like screaming out loud, but i can't. i want to get rid of all the stupid deadlines, but i can't. i want to talk, but can i? i need a break. life will be easier if ... people up there appreciate us more the stupid deadlines don't come so quick happy times go by slowly i can turn back time friends are there all the time crap. life sucks. deadlines suck more. argh!!! with love, xoxo avec l'expression: the journey begins
3.11.07 @ 18:42 concert last night. reported to school at 1. had a moronic rehearsal. supposed to have our dinner at 5.30pm, in the end only ate at 6.30. everything was in such a rush. everything delayed. the guys look so ... un-themselves in their suits. at least most of them do. here's a whole bunch of photos i took before the concert. :)                at first, i didn't even feel like it was concert already. but we had to line up near the stage. its like 3 more steps and you're up there. its only then that we all felt concert-ish. haha. the first half of the concert finished SO FAST! its like when you're happily warming up the seat, the first half is finished. then came interval. looked for lily and melissa, mr and mrs leung, meiling, her brother, soloman and friend, gabriel and jie ying. thanks meiling for the red rose~~!! thanks sock leng for the pink rose~~!! thank all of you for coming !! :) :)  went back to backstage. and jolene found me. and she gave me a orange-y rose! thank you darling!! sorry i didn't get you anything this time! i still love you!! :D  then it was the moment of truth. second half! mistakes through the most important piece. but well, melissa said she didn't notice there's a mistake in front. so that's good. but! high A, Bb and C didn't come visit me last night. but manage to play through. hmm, hope i'll improve. finally we ended the concert at nearly 10pm. got all the stuff back upstairs. and then its photo time with my beloved people!! i'll miss you guys!! and matthew gave us each a rose~! i got a purple one! thanks matthew!!         debrief ended and FINALLY left band room around 12. oh ya, very importantly, thank you qinghui!! i love you!!! me, qinghui, desmond, jolene, isaac, olivia, yile, kenny, zhexing, razanah, nina, jerome and hariani went over to mcdonalds slack till 1.30am. wanted to stay over at nina's but they're sleeping! so me, jolene and qinghui went bedok to meet jingting, raphael, law wei, mark, wei zhen and yong woei.   left for jolene's zui kway at 5.20am. so sleepy lar. took a bus to kaki bukit, then realise that 15 and 21 only come at 6.20am! and at that time, its only 5.50am! so i sat there rotting. and suddenly, i saw a light. bus 58!!! hah. so i reached home at 6.30am. finally slept! woke up at 3pm. and i'm still sleepy now. :x anyway, those who have the full band pictures, please send me! i want those photos! thank you~! it will never be the same again without you guys. you guys will be missed! with love, xoxo |