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the 4 letter word, l o v e
5.1.08 @ 20:34 A kiss is just a kiss until you find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one you're thinking of. A dream is just a dream until you make it come true. Love is just a word until its proven to you. - qinghui's blog to me now, love is just another word. it did mean something to me some time back, but now, it's just another word. i think a better way to phrase that last sentence to suit me better would be love is just a word unless when it is proven to you. yes, true, love really is just another word. but with that word in a relationship, comes great responsibility. when you say 'i love you' to your better half, it means that at that point in time, you really truly love him/her, and you would do anything to protect him/her. but have you ever thought about what happens if your better half is no longer your better half? does that love continue? does that love grow? do you still want to protect him/her? some say that with love, comes hate. but, how can one hate a person he/she once loved so very much? if 2 persons are no longer together, does that mean that they must hate each other to prove or show that they have once loved? i myself, for one, can't bring myself to hate those i've truly loved and given my heart to, no matter how much they have hurt me, during the relationship, or after ... very long after. it doesn't matter how long the relationship lasted, 9 months or 40 days. once loved, always will love. just that it has evolved into another kind of love, love for either friends or fellow human beings. ************************************************** 男人爱上女人后， 他会做诗。 女人爱上男人后， 她会做梦。 translation: when a man loves a woman, he'll write poems. when a woman loves a man, she'll dream. - qinghui's blog i wouldn't have agreed to the two lines if i saw it 3 years ago. but now, i do. maybe its because i've met someone i loved who wrote poems. it is sweet, to see a poem a loved one wrote especially for you, but when the loved one is gone, all that's left is memories. but what about the second line that a woman dreams when she's in love? i'd say, a woman is blind when she's in love, and to her, everything seem so wonderful. and that, is dreaming. at that time, it would seem like the world is a beautiful place, a place so beautiful and perfect, nothing can spoil it. but, when she's no longer in love, she falls from the highest peak in the world, into the steepest cliff there can ever be. ************************************************** if love loses hurt, it would become a beautiful love. but beautiful love is only possible because hurt make us realise what is beautiful. - jolene's blog love is beautiful, when you're in it. but once you lose it, there's nothing left to it except memories, hurt and tears. but does that stop people from loving? no. like the second sentence says, because hurt make us realise what is beautiful. so true, it hurts. ************************************************** i really do envy those who have not loved, because they've never been hurt. it's too painful to fall from up there, all the way down that cliff. some walk out of it hurt, torn, afraid, lost. others walk out of it stronger than they have been before, ready to meet new challenges, ready ... to get back up there and fall all the way down again. while others are too numb to the feeling of falling, they can't feel anything or have lost the mean to feel because it's been too long a stay down at that cliff. for the past 2 years, i was stuck at the bottom of that demonic cliff, the longest fall i've ever had in my life. i was hurt, scared and torn apart. i gave myself chances to climb up to the horizon, but only, sadly, to fall all the way down again. the last days of 2007, i gathered enough courage to climb up a little and face the music, but only to find out that i'm being kicked down to the 18th level of hell, not just once, but twice. thanks to my best friend, i've managed to get the heck out of there, back to earth, and climb back up to the horizon. now, i can't feel anything, because i'm too numb to feel, and because it hurts to recollect the times when i was up in heaven ... literally. headaches come when anything about that short stay in heaven was thought about. am i ready to get back up to heaven now? i'd say, not yet. the time is about right, but ... the other factors are not coming in yet. now the problem is, am i mentally prepared for the fall that comes at the end? that ... i can't say for sure. but, if the stay in heaven is really worth it, i'm willing to fall down again. this serves as my final conclusion with the stay in the land high above that made me fall and lay motionless in that cliff for years. never will i repeat this mistake with this particular stay. this stay has come to an end. it is like that for now, and it will stay that way ... forever. the only love that i have for this stay is the love for ... fellow human beings now. it might morph into a love for friends, but ... that remains to be confirmed. i am stronger now. no more am i the weak me, who fell so deep so very often. 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