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28.6.08 @ 19:57 i have been driven nuts by work. yes, i know i've been slacking but i was given an assignment on wednesday. and to be frank, it's driving me N-U-T-S. its not that i want to complain about having stuff to do, but this assignment has given me nightmares this morning. this is going to be one LONG assignment. anyway, went over to shun man's chalet last night. spent my night playing mahjong. oh ya, we also played asshole poker that shu yi taught us. really stupid game, but it's fun! :) really miss the days when we sat in class watching the guys playing game on the OHP screen and rushing off to shut it down when ms. salinah came. gosh, those days, they'll never come back. i didn't know that pasir ris has got a sunrise view to die for. i only realise it when i came back at 6.40am. it's really beautiful. too bad i was in the bus, or i could have stood there to watch it. when we were young, we can't wait to grow up. but now that we're older, we wish we're younger. how ironic. with love, xoxo lost, for good
22.6.08 @ 16:57 i've been kind of moody the past week. at first i thought it was because of that incident. it's only last night that i realise, that that's not the main cause. i realise i just lost something. something that is of extreme importance to me. something that i've had with me for many years. something ... that has become a major part of my life. i never thought i'd be so messed up like i am now because of the loss. i even thought that the loss is a change for the better, since i'm so tired these days. but i realise nothing else can replace that space left by that loss. i thought that i could live with the fact that band is no longer a part of my life. but i thought wrong. it has been a major part of my life for 8 long years. it's like losing someone you love and treasure for 8 years in the blink of an eye. but no, music is not dead. it's just that i won't be able to make music with friends or express myself through it. i refuse to go home early on the previous monday and friday. i just refuse to. i've had 3 years when i spent monday and friday nights in school. i can't get used to the lack of it. i think i've fallen in too deep. fallen into the musical trap. into the trap that there's no way out. i can't bear to bring myself back into that room. the room that i've made precious friends in. the room that i've spent at least 5hours weekly in. the room that reminded me of the great time spent there. i promised that i'll visit. but i doubt it'll be any time soon. the only visit that i'll make is supper visit. and i wish i don't have to hear about what happens in that room now. for i will only feel worse that i can't be part of it. i can't bring myself to click on those songs that we played for concerts. for i know, that droplets will roll from my eyes. remembering the memories, the fun, the madness we faced then. i've given too much. i guess this is what i get for giving my all for 3 years. and there it ends, with just another ordinary band practice. how do they leave without feeling how i feel now? Labels: band with love, xoxo arh
18.6.08 @ 19:39 i seriously don't know what i did to deserve this crap. fu*k, why is it so difficult to prioritise. there's a limit to how much i can tolerate. is the problem with me, or is it with you? gosh, can't you just spare a thought for others? argh, enough complaining. things will be better tomorrow. things will get better. things have to be better. with love, xoxo you've been tagged
16.6.08 @ 20:50 rules + regulations a) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves b) tag 6 people to do this quiz & thos who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people. Q : If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction? A: either give him 1 tight slap on his face + kick him where it hurts or walk away and dump him. Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be? A: 1. get my driving license 2. save more money 3. understand some stuff Q : Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real? A: gosh, i'm not that bimbotic to think that i'm too perfect to be real. Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you? A: not really. i know what i want now. Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love? A: in the past, i would have said no. but now, the answer's the opposite. Q : Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? A: goodness, of course the latter. loving someone but not having him love you is worse than not loving at all. that's something i've learnt from experience. if i can choose, i'll love someone, and have him love me more than i love him. that's the perfect situation. Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love? A: let's see. i waited for 2years plus before i finally gave up. i think that will be my limit. i don't have so many 2years left to waste on someone who doesn't love me. Q : If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do? A: i won't fall for someone whom i know is attached. but if during the time that i like him, he becomes attached, i think i'll forget him and move on. there's more trees out in the woods. no point holding onto 1 single tree for so long. Q : Is there anything that made you unhappy these days? A: oh gosh, yes. but thankfully, there's always RANDY around to talk to me. randy's the best! :) Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like? A: hah, no, not now. Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? A: i'd be lying if i said no. Q : Who are currently most important people to you? A: let's see, i'll just name the 4 most important now: randy, kelvin, eden, georgie. Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't? A: it's a lie if i say no. Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you? A: have him love me as much or more than i love him, be sensitive to my needs, lots of tlc, be true to me, don't disappoint me. gosh, i had that long ago. Q : Are you happy with your life? A: more or less. some things could be better, but i shan't complain. Q : Would you give all in a relationship? A: yes, if not what's the point of being in one? Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?the lousier one?OR the better one? A: it depends on who i love more. Q : What type of friends do you like? A: friends who are true to me, don't disappoint me. (hmm, don't these seem similar to what i want in an ideal relationship? hah.) Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change? A: yes, but well, one must be content with what one has. Q : What do you notice when you first meet a guy? A: erm, that he's a guy? i don't really notice any specific thing. 6 people I tagged : 1. qinghui 2. eden 3. jolene 4. randy 5. yile 6. georgie p.s. thanks randy for listening to me talk for an hour just now. really appreciate it. i really hope you know what i want from you. i've been compromising, i really hope you'll compromise for me too. with love, xoxo closure
15.6.08 @ 15:17 goodness, the heat. it's so very warm today. i'm getting cooked here. bbq last night was fun. it's my first time starting a fire, but it worked just fine. :D  (don't ask why it looks purple. it's meant to be red.) stayed at changi beach till 12+. went over to this hotel at changi. i never thought that there'll be a high class hotel in changi. sat at the lobby with melissa, april and jiazhen. it's fun to just sit there and talk about stuff. comfy comfy. :) i couldn't sleep last night. maybe it's because of that, i guess. only manage to sleep at 3+ in the morning. sometimes i really wonder if i'm making life tough for myself. hmm, will no longer be going for band pracs. simply because alumnis aren't allowed in nbc's cat1. oh well, i'm tired after work on mondays too. it's better if i rest early or i'll feel sleepy the whole week. maybe i'll pop by for supper sometime. there hasn't been much reason for me to stay on since jolene and olivia left. so well, let's just call it a day. oh yes, the graduation pictures are finally here. paid $5 for it lar. i don't know why, but i look wide in this picture. =x  sigh, today's sunday already. tomorrow's monday. another 5 days before the long awaited weekend. monday blues. arh! time to catch up on anime! well, will be back when i bother to. :D with love, xoxo night out with eden
14.6.08 @ 00:22 walking from orchard to city hall with eden is sure ... exciting. i never thought it's so windy on the kerbs. no wonder we striked kerb during driving test. lolx! anyway, i stayed in office till 6.30pm today, even when i can leave at 5.30pm. just because i'm meeting mr eden wgp. but well, it proved to be worth it. first, dinner at The Ship. had the carbonara set. believe it or not, i'm quite full by the time i finish half of it. eden can be such a joker sometimes. lightning~ thunder~ ahh, smoke signals! anyway, thanks for dinner eden! :D then we went window shopping and starbucks. gosh, the latte get more bitter when you drink it. argh. but seriously, walking with eden is rather fun. all bored and crazy people should try it. :D and now, work. you can see how interesting it is when i've been on msn since wednesday. web messenger is providing alot of entertainment. :) i also finally saw my boss. he's nice, just like my other colleagues. hope work's going to be more interesting. anyway, weekend's quite packed. hope i'll have enough time to rest though. alrights, time to do other stuff. will be back when i can. :) till then... Labels: work with love, xoxo weekend!
7.6.08 @ 13:27 weekend!!!!!!!!! i just LOVE weekends!! it feels great to be able to sleep till 11am. ah, my bed feels 100x more comfy on this rainy saturday. :) anyway, work has been, readingly boring. have been reading newspapers every single day. gosh, when can i start my training? have been falling asleep real early these days. slept around 9 or 10 last few nights. even last night, i slept at 11+. need more sleep now. *yawns* yesterday, the stupid sandwich machine ate up my $10. i just wanted a sandwich and it ate my $10! had to call up this felle and he said he'll send a $10 cheque back. idiotic lar, wanted it for dinner lor. i won't buy from that stupid machine anymore. patience is a virtue. or maybe it isn't. my dear weekend, please be here to stay. another 8 days before i'll see you. i'm starting to think of things, why? assure me that you love me please. Labels: work with love, xoxo |